[___Shadow___]

Hi everyone,
I've been reading a lot of your posts and I owe you all a big thank you for keeping my head above water, THANK YOU!!!
I don't know what I'd do without somewhere to turn.
My question is: Do any of you have really loud thoughts instead of voices?
I used to have voices but they have changed to thoughts, Out of the blue, not thinking like me( nor ever would) thoughts. Is this the samish thing?
Ever since I've admitted to myself that I have DID the loud voices have stop, why why why?
I don't mind, Mind you but come on...is my mind playing tricks on me too?
So glad to be all signed up and Chatable* grin*

[RozG]

((((((((_Shadow_))))))))

you're loud thoughts are the same your voices in my opinion...you need to fight them, they are wrong in my opinion, you are a VERY special person, we ALL have loud voices in my opinion and all of them do us harm as they ALL think we are small and weak...please forgive me if I am wrong but in my opinion you must fight these voices or thoughts as you call them!

thinking of you and hoping for you to heal,
roz
xx

[shame]

yes .. often this occurs within me ... you may want to do some journaling when they are the strongest .. you may be able to understand more about your thoughts and maybe why you are thinking loudly ... triggers that i miss usually causes this to happen..understanding them is the key to your peace of mind.

[wanttoheal]

Hi Shadow,
Welcome to PC! We're glad you're here.

Mine are loud thoughts, although I do refer to them as voices at times I think. My T explained it like this. If they come from outside my head (feels like they are outside talking to me), then it is probably caused by something else (psychosis, schizophrenia, etc), but the inside voices- loud thoughts are coming inside my head, they aren't telling me what to do per se (such as go kill this person, go steal that whatever, etc), then it is likely part or me.

I don't have anything talking from outside my head. But, some of the loud thoughts I hear feel like wow, I would never say that (but I find out later, from T or someone mentioning it, that indeed I do, as another part of me ). I also get them kind of chanting some pretty yucky names at me (I think it is a repeating of what the body was called when it was little). That is always a pretty negative experience for me.

Hope that helps a little? It's still confusing to me and sometimes I'm not present enough to catch all of what T says so I sometimes have some half truths running around in my brain. Thankfully my T explains things as many times as needed without acting like I'm a dumbbutt.

We're glad you're all signed up and chatable now. Hope to hear from you again soon!

[Kiya]

yeah, wanttoheal explained that well. DID is you- but seperated. so the voices are you (or thoughts) but seperated. They have something to share or say and need to be heard.
If the thoughts are ordering you, telling you things in a way that is dangerous, then that needs to be worked with. I had alters who do try to cause me harm, but it is because they were taught to cause me harm. So i still have to work with them.
hope that helps.

[___Shadow___]

Thanks, this helps!
I try to work with them and have no money for T anymore so I'm hoping to find a lot of what I need to know online, until things change and I can see T.
I had no Idea this was my problem all my life, I would be stuck and not able talk or cry or whatever. I always thought well I'm just REALLY moody, until I went through a really hard spot and started hearing voices. I always had thoughts that didn't seem to be my own but I thought I was just going out on a nother limb. I'd tell myself to smarten up, it didn't help.
Until the mood was over I was stuck. Now I know, until the alter is finished I'm stuck and It does help. I can feel being behind another and is creepy and scarey but I can switch back faster and from behind tell the others to be nicer or it's o.k. etc
Oop's, running on and on with this but thanks.

[wanttoheal]

Ooh, understand not being able to talk. Sometimes when T will ask a question, I become mute. Even if I want to say something, it's like I've had my mouth covered. For me, it's because of secrets. T and I have to be very creative sometimes to get the information out without breaking the injunctions.

[Kiya]

oh hey - me too. nice to know it isn't just me. but t can't figure out how to get to info w/o triggering worse. so she just backs off. which i think is also working some because it shows me that i get to stay "in control" and not her and she knows that i try to get her the info and will try to keep from switching and will stop talking if i feel a takeover happening. it works better than other ts' trying to push me and then we would just go mute. =)