[lauren_helene]

I've been in therapy 3 years now and like many of us here on PC in therapy, it triggers me. Especially when the abandonment/rejection button is hit.

A few sessions ago, I had asked T about DBT...I'm sorry I asked at this point but anyway, the first session the whole time was dedicated to giving me an overview. I had no time to talk, he was matter of fact (this alone sends me to the moon) at the end I boiled over and almost ran out of the session.

I was so upset I zoned out on the way home and missed two exits..ended up almost back at work. When I realized I was far away from where I needed to be I broke into tears.

T says my zoning out is a good thing because I'm almost empty during that time. I almost jumped out of my skin. I fail to see the happiness in my zoning out.

Another time last summer, after something traumatic (not therapy related) I remember getting in my rental car but nothing else. A month later, I got a ticket in the mail because I went through an ezpass lane and the rental car didn't have a tag.

I was 60 miles from home and have never gone to that area before. I just don't see how this is a good thing...I didn't know where else to post this question.

T says I am in the Bipolar II range, I have some traits of BPD, and have ADD. I know I dissociate that is obvious to me. I worry that he is getting ready to tell me down the line that I might be DID.

That is why the comment bothers me...any advice is appreciated

[wanttoheal]

((((((((((((((((((lauren_helene))))))))))))))) Everyone dissociates to a degree. I wouldn't worry about having DID. Dissociation is like a scale with normal dissociation being one one side and DID on the other side. From what you are saying, it sounds like pretty normal stuff to me.

Dissociation can help at times. Maybe not when missing an exit or going through the ez pass, but it can help sometimes to be able to get through things that feel overwhelming. As you learn different ways of regulating emotions and coping with things, you will dissociate less.

Hang in there.