Been silent forever

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They said it was for our own good they said it was because l was too old and that when you get old this is how it is they said that if we ever ever tell then they would come for us and they would hurt me some more and now they come when l sleep so no allow no one to sleep it no safe to sleep they must not come agen they must stay away ...tired so so tired and feel so weak and mad real real mad
why she not do somethiing to stop it all instead of run away and hide sand still hide still leave it to us but cant stay shushhh no more have to tell have to make it all understand me is so scared that they will come back but me cant keep shushh no more so now can see that if they come back them we might be hurt real bad but me hurts real bad now anyway and just done care no more. She fight to keep me from cum out but it not gonna work no more its not fairand l hate them all for what they did and now me cant do no more she will pay if she no listen she has to listen why she no listen we is hurtin and she dont care she cares about the others but no me she want to help them but she no want to help me and me know l is bad and do bad stuff but me is sorry why dont she believe me that we is sorry #
why no one love me why we always be hated and hurt dont want everyone to hate me no more have to go back away els ed she be real mad some more and me no want her to be real mad at me no more

Sarahthey call me to help and then leave me alone

Silent no more!

You are very brave to come and speak. Hugs to you. It is good to get things out. Sometimes they don't hurt so bad then when we share them with people we trust.
I am glad you are in a safe place now and are able to speak. Keep talking it gets easier.

Kayti

I so understand secrets. It's what my life was built on, keeping secrets. I'm just now realizing the extent of this and how it's unwittingly affected not only my life but the lives of my children.

I think it's wonderful that you are speaking out. Good job.

thank you for your reply......l find it hard to understand why Sarah has decided to post this here as before this we knew that someone was there but she refused to say anything at all and when she did she was so very hostile and hurtful so this is so different................does this mean she needs my help now l dont knwo almost scared to try to find out
everything is so up in the air and nothing seems to be making much sense to me right now all l know is that l seem to have posts and writing all over the placehow can l calm things down again??????

Do you have a therapist? Awareness is the first step, imo and it sounds like you are getting that. Healing will come. Hang in there.

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Tell it all, Sweetheart! Get it all out with someone you can trust to not hurt you! I think you told me you have a therapist. Is that right? Tell your therapist everything that you are remembering. They can help you deal with it.

This means that you are beginning to heal. You have some pretty rough things to go through, but you are beginning to heal!

You are in my heart and in my prayers, Sweety. I'm not giving up on you and God sure isn't, either!

Love you SO MUCH!

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Yeah l do have a therapist and she is very good too she has been encouraging all to come forward and speak their pain and slowly slowly they are. This was of course except for Sarah she would not talk and when she did the words the theraoist would not repeat and talk about what was going on...........we knew that someone was fighting so ard against us and scaring the others with very hurtful and insulting things.. hearing cruel cruel words being screamed in my head on bad days has become a daily thing......constant hurting and destroying things that we had already thought we were beginning to heal. The protector would protect no more why she would not contiinue the fight so things have just escalted.......................to read the post hurts..............l have wrongly judged did not understand .............this post has both been a step forward but also for me personally a massive step back.............l thought l knew them all...........l thought that they were all out and safe to talk.........l was wrong so wronghow many more like Sarah are there waiting staying silent hurting and scared with no one to hear them...... the flashbacks are back in force and l hate them it these that completely destroy me inside and out............is this the only way for me to see why do l have to keep looking at these scenes.......l know they are flashbacks but when l am with others, out or driving it really doesnt help to know in my head that they are flashbacks.............. what next when will the hurt be gone.......................my heart once again has this bad bad sinking feeling..........locked inside with only this tormented mind.
L pray that He does not give up on me..............for once more my insides shake in fear and my head and heart are screaming

Mandy/Sassy

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