what's goin' on? is this dissociation?

Miracle1986 · 08:54 AM

Everything feels like it's moving in slow motion... even my thoughts are in slow motion. But a couple stuff
(I know it sounds funny but the only way I can describe it is) they're were going in what seems like fast slow motion.

everything feels so surreal... am I just dissociating really bad? What's going on? I have never had things go in slow motion before...

multipixie9 · Apr 30, 2009, 10:44 AM

manda, i can't say that i know exactly what is going on with you but it kinda sounds like something they call derealization or depersonalization.

i know you are in a difficult place right now and you are struggling inside.

please keep writing in and i know people here will support you while you figure it out. sometimes things just get extra hard or extra weird, but i do think it will settle down in a while and you will not feel like slow motion an like you are out of sync with yourself. hang in there, ok? hugs,

leslie and her pixies

Miri · Apr 30, 2009, 05:35 PM

I think Multipixie is right about the derealization/depersonalization, and those are labels to help people talk about their experience. Many people have experienced similar things and I realize it must feel very scary, but you are not going to fall apart. this is a time to talk to someone, try some grounding techniques, breath slowly, rhythmically. Perhaps you have things in place that comfort you. Can you think of something that would help you feel safe. Someone posted a whole list of grounding sugestions recently, either here or in ritual abuse. Did you see it? There might be something there for you. My heart is going out to you. Be safe as best you can.

Apr 30, 2009, 11:27 PM

i get that way sometimes too. Always just thought dissociation...interesting other labels. Hmmm. i get slow and hazy and sometimes i get stuck/frozen too. i never had anyone say it was anything besides "just" dissociation. You're not alone.

jeNeTeConnaisPas · May 01, 2009, 11:27 AM

I have had strange expiriences, that I never considered Dissociation. But may reflect derealization and depersonalization.

Sometimes I feel like everything around me, is a dream, or that it doesnt feel like its "mine" in a sense. How I relate to the world feels completely foreign.

But when I was little, and this is the strangest expirience I used to have all the time, and still once in a while feel:

I would be laying down or something, just relaxing, and all of a sudden, my whole body, every molecule in my body, all the tactile sensation of my clothes, my bed, the floor, my blanket, whatever, felt SO TINY. And I felt like my whole body was so so so so so so BIG. Enormous!

I felt like everything I was touching was so tiny and I could feel a sensation that the only way I could describe it to myself as a child was "I feel like I'm so big, that Im going to break anything I touch because im so heavy and so much bigger than everything."

I usually felt it most in my fingers. I rub the fabric of my blanket between my pinky, ring finger, and thumb, and have my middle finger and index finger placed in my mouth (i still do this, lol) and it felt like the blanket fabric was so so so tiny and that my fingers were giant and swolen and i could feel the sensations of the fabric on my fingers really intensely, that i might rip the blanket, eventhough it was just being gently rubbed.

Like I was a really heavy giant squishing everything.

It was strange, and the sensation only lasted a few moments or a few minutes at the most. But it happened at least once a week througout my entire childhood.

Now it only happens once in a while if im dozing off. It probably hasnt happened for a few years even. It used to confuse me but I just assumed I was having some strange expirience and it never worried me too much. Thought it was really intense and confused me usually.

Anyone else have an expirience similar to that?