i am bad
horrid
worst person on the planet
so bad
so mean
so horrible
i don't deserve to be here
i don't deserve anything
i am wothless
bad
cruel
a coward
and any other thing you can think of
i have hurt her so bad
i didn't fight for her
i didn't tell white iris she is my best friend
i said i would go along with what was best
now she is so hurt
and it's my fault

nobody---(also known as naomi but is going back
to my real name)

[Sannah]

Naomi! Iris!

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((( naomi ))))))))))))))

((((((((((( white iris )))))))))))))

[Poohbear13]

((((((naomi)))))))
((((((white iris)))))))

I will sit with you as long as you need it.

Pooh

Not horrid at all. Horrid doesn't care. You care. Not horrid at all.

[Elysium]

You're NOT nobody ...you're Naomi!!

Sometimes, in friendships, we don't always say things we want to say or do things that we want to do, and once we realize it, feelings have been hurt or something happens and we feel badly about it.

I think WI knows that you are her friend and you care, regardless whether you have told her this recently. And you have the opportunity right now to tell her.

One of the ways to tell a great friend from a nobody is when that friend can see how their actions impact others and if they impact others negatively, they are sure to notice it and make changes where they can.

I'm not saying you did anything wrong, because I really don't think you did. On the contrary, you see that WI was impacted by something you did or didn't do, you are recognizing that, and you are telling her now, with your actions and words that you care.

The nobodies of this world don't, won't, or can't do that!!
You just did. That's the mark of a true friend...a somebody!!

[Hunny]

Naomi (Nobody), I like both your names too.

So here you are! White's been lookin' for you and I imagine she is so happy to see you here. You are very 'near and dear' to her.

Take good care,

ICE

It's okay you had to be gone for a bit. You know WI understands completely, not to worry at all.

[multipixie9]

hi naomi and white_iris,

i am sorry you feel so bad naomi. i think somebody made u think u were so bad. u can't be so bad and care about it too. real evil knows it and doesn't care. that's not you.

i feel guilt and shame sometimes too. i wish i could have done more or better.

don't be mean to yourself, please. it won't help you at all and it won't make you better either. keep talking and let people support you.

see you around,

leslie and the pixies

[Fuzzybear]

somebody else made you feel bad
you arent bad

flaming dagger to the heart
i bleed
flaming dagger to the soul
i die
----------------------------
t doesn't understand
the pain is so awful
she says concentrate on the garden
and i smile and make small talk
and my heart is crumbling
and a RL friend said
it's the consequence of reading her
e-mail
should not have
i have opened up more hurt for me
and for the constellation
so i am bad again
i was just hoping that
b'cuz she is my best friend
she would know
that i tried to fight to stay
but have to respect the whole of the
constellation
and being with her system is toxic for us.

but does anyone even understand the pain??
it hurts so bad
t doesn't get it
friends don't get it
i am alone
i am the cause of more pain for us
i'm going away now.

nobody

[Fuzzybear]

i sorta get it
i am bad bad bad too

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by white_iris

it's the consequence of reading her
e-mail
should not have
i have opened up more hurt for me
and for the constellation
so i am bad again

i was just hoping that
b'cuz she is my best friend
she would know
that i tried to fight to stay

Nobody (Naomi ) you say that because she is your friend she should understand. But remember, you said that she is very self centered. She isn't thinking about you at all. This is your job and that is why you broke it off because you must take care of yourself. You are doing the right thing!

You were curious? about the email and that is why you opened it. You do not have to get sucked in again. Stay outside of all of that chaos and toxicity and stay here with us where we can support you!

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((( naomi )))))))))))))))

you are doing the right thing,
I know it hurts,
love
furry paws

[Hunny]

((((( Naomi )))))

Feeling bad doesn't make you bad but if you carry that weight then probably White is grateful, even if she probably wishes you had an easier role. Maybe it can be made lighter over time.

Ice

[iamtwilight]

lots of hugs we don't think you're bad or horrid or anything you have said in here before. it will get better... please hang in there.

twilite et al

[Eriksplus]

Naomi,
I myself know exacltly how you feel; I tend to think I am a terrible man. I look like a monster, and it seems every time I try to help the host, I get in trouble. I was beaten to death, and I think every day that I deserved it.
we must help eachother stay strong, you and I.
Erik