mothers day is probably one of the top 6 worst day of the year for us...horrific things happened and then when they told our mother her reply was " damn i didn't get to see...do it again." lovely...right.

so yeah...i'm not feeling the hallmark card moment today...the peeps are coming and going...the dogs are barking (the joy of living next to an amusement park) at all the other people dragging mom to the park and i hate to bug my t on her day. oh and everyone and their brother it seems has sent me blnket "happy mothers day" greeting from the computer.

i know this day comes, i do my best to prepare but every year it hits me like a tons of bricks and knocks the crap out of me. people come and go at lightening fast speed and some i don't see much appear now.

i can't go out and do stuff becaus ei'm to scattery today...god only knows where i'd end up so staying home is actually the safest thing...but it sucks...and its not that safe.

damn the mother from hell (and dear old dad and his friends).

doubts there is a hallmark card for this...

stumpy

[Soidhonia]

I am sorry you are suffering Stump, and there is Nothing that makes you Have to Celebrate this day PERIOD, I just hope that you are safe and the day goes by quickly for you and then tomorrow will be here, so you will be less triggered. Take care of YOU STUMP. That is what Truly matters. Soidhonia

[Jewels]

Stumpy...im sorry that u r havin such a difficult day...often these days r filled with disdain for someone who had the nerve to say they loved u to ur face an then make life a livin hell...im sorry the bricks just got too much for u today...but am glad u r stayin home so u dont go wanderin where u might not wanna go...try an b kind to urself today an find somethin u like ta do ta change this day inta a regular day...there aint nothin sayin u cant celebrate u today...so do somethin nice for u...

abbi of jewels

[notz]

I'm sorry you had bad things happen and they didn't protect you. I give you hugs

[wanttoheal]

(((((((((((((((Stumpy))))))))))))) I'm so sorry this is a hard day for you. I hope you will find peace.

((((((stumpy)))))))

[MINIME]

my mom was-is a bad person too. I also hate this day.

[Eriksplus]

Originally Posted by MINIME

my mom was-is a bad person too. I also hate this day.

I can agree with this statement. I hope you find peace.
Erik

[multipixie9]

stumpy, sorry m.d. stinks so badly for you. i have almost no good mother memories either. BUT, it can get better. this year i did not even think of my mother at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! of course it helps that she's been dead since 1992. she haunted my life for many years after her death and she was one of my top two abusers (on the level of nazi prison guards) so, things can get better and i hope it happens for you sooner rather than later.

i am blessed with two daughters and my goal as their mom was that they would not have to spend their lives in counseling as adults to get over my parenting while they were children. they do have some problems from their childhood, but i can honestly say they will never hurt as badly as i did and we have a loving relationship. please hang in there and do not give up hope for peace.

Leslie and her pixies