storm

storm is a comin birds no sing still...........
we be's scared cuz mom say we is bad that y it storm
God is mad at us we is eveil wicked child



mary sue

There there sweet one. Mom was wrong. Yes, moms can be wrong. Storms are just weather and not God being mad at you. Mom was bad, you are good. You are a good girl.

Snuggle up, hug a stuffie, color.

No child is evil!

Sit tight through the storm, we'll sit with you.

(((((((( mary sue, beads and all ))))))))

I made a beads and button fairy just for you to help keep you safe until the storm passes.

mary sue we luve yuo
yuo ok?

baby

gots teddi wansa hied under the tabel
but we is bineg strong wont hide
will sets hear with her freinds

mary sue

Mary Sue!

holds out her hand to mary sue cuz she likes all her so much

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thanks to all of you for your kin helpful posts.........
pc |and all our freinds here rock!!!
mary sue is hiding but Me am not..........
ahnd Me has a question for ye all............
any replys would be so a[preciated as always because we value so much everyones' insight and experiences and different ways of thinking............

okay so ummm .........iffen beadys parents did not want or accept her...aye they hated her and telled her so..............how in the world is we supposed to learn how to love her or want her ( and all of her parts to be here) or accept her.........or even just not hate us????????????????????

there has also been many other important peoples in beads lifes who seemed to agree with beads real parents in that they thought the worst of us too/not ever good enuf...............
me tries not to pay no attention to the negative judgements that others put on her but sumfin dunno what has put us back a few (decades give or take a couple) and we is in that darkness again where we just hearing those old tapes...........cant help but lissen to them ya know..........
trying to change the way we think when we does not know any other way to o think is like not happening ............me means..........
hjow could so many others not think nice of us and NOT be right there was a hole lot more of them then there is of us!

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(((beads))) there are many people, who arent selfish and bad like those who have hurt you.

they are bad and you never ever will be. you were a child and still have children inside. grownups who are bad will prey on little ones because its easy.

no matter what they say, you were never bad! children are incapable of evil.

we will always love and stand by you Beads. -The Breakfast Club

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FOR REAL??????ALL CHILDREN ARE NOT EVIL???????
we wants to believe these words so badly but that 5-letter dirty word we was talking about in dd chat comes up...................me thinks we is actually afraid of believing this but have absolutely no idea why..............

it is good to know that someone kind as you is standing by us............we appreciate your love [and freindship we hope] so very much!

all of us beadys

we r sittin with u too beadys...an know that we know that NO child is evil...an Yahnas parents din want her eithr...but see how she is today an how much bettr she is...she still has low low low self esteem but she dont much mind bout her mothr no more...she wrote her mom a lettr an left it in gods hands an since then hasnt heard from her at all...so if she wants ta b that way, aftr sayin that she wanted ta adopt a baby girl...then why did she do so much damage ta us an tell us we dont mattr an always blame us for her shortcomins...she is nothin more than mean...an we hafta let it be...sometimes its hardr than others...but we got somethin in place now where she cant never come ta our house again cuz of what happened the last time she wuz here...an we dont much care if we dont hear from her...she treats everyone around her that gives in to her demands really nice but treats us like crap an we know in our heart of hearts she din want a baby girl...she wanned a perfect baby girl...an so din never want us...that required too much work for her ta cope with...but we KNOW in our inner knower that u r such a good person...so ready ta help an be considerate of others an always givin somebody a hug or a hand ta grab onto when life is hard...we KNOW u were NEVR a bad child...NEVR...an tell mary sue that she can ask nething she wants an we will always tell her the truth...cuz truth will set her free...

love,
abbi

kids can be forced to do evil things. we know. we did stuff that was horrible but we dint have choice. they made us do bad bad things. we wudn tell you wat they are cos they wud triggr you an mak you feel sick.

we felt evil in some parts of us. we had no real choice. they had all the power.they were monsters.

not gonna tell owr name

I am so sorry that you were forced to do evil things at such a young age. But let me assure you, it was not your fault, and you did nothing to alter the fact that you survived horrible things to be the survivor you are today. I hope that you can feel the tenor of my message and not confuse it by explaining it away to evil men. Because I know that NO child, regardless of the circumstances, is evil in and of themselves, but because it was forced upon them.

Hugs and hands to hold,

Yahna

((((((((((((abbi of Jewels)))))))))))))
(((((((((((((multipixie)))))))))))))))))

beads say thank you, and also we i so sorry that u also expereinced such darknesses as we..............
that said,,,we has no more words about this atm because is toooooooooooo
close to sumthing????????? (sory not sure what but like bells and whistles is going off and do not know why)

hugs and peace to you both,

beads

Mary, could it just be therapy is taking you back there?

In order to not believe what our parents told us we have to accept that they were wrong. This is a hard thing to do I guess. When we are small our parents are everything.

Now when others give judgements they frequently pick up on how we already feel about ourselves. If a person walks into a room with self doubt and self hate in their eyes people will see this and a large number of people will believe the same thing. There are those who do have compassion, however. Those who understand. But basically we need to take the lead in how others see us by what we project about ourselves.

to answer first part first, dunno cuz we has been haveing flashback issues since bef therapy start adn still have.........but well therapy always seems to take us somehwere dark these days grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr usually take several days to rite ourselfs afteresards..........

yeah on teh second part bead mean like yes we are definitely aware of that altho not as much as we should be maybe........we is developing self-estemm more a bit at at ime..when you start with nuthing anything is progress adn we is beginning to make progress here.jsut slow someitmes too slow adn we is impateint
mary wants tell you thanks for help us keep focused and buddy says hi

beads ( all of us)

dear beadys,

is hard to be patient cos we all wants it to be better NOW. sooo hard to wait for the pain and heavy weights to go away. it takes however long it takes and i think it is all worth the time, the long time(altho we wants it now too).

hang in there everyone,

leah of the pixies (altho i am too old to be a pixie, i'm 5' 6" tall!)