[wat_am_i]

i was a young and wild child. i married at 17 to my high school sweet heart. we dated for 3 years then desided to get married. after 6 months of marriage we separated on account of my mood swings. i was always paranoide that he was doing me wrong.( later found out i was wrong). but we went our separet ways for a while. well for our anniversary i asked hi to come over. i wanted to ask hi if we could get help to work out or marraige. the day came and i was horrified when he sat me down and told me he was now GAY. mind u i have no problem with gays. but for him to tell me this sent me into a world of confusion. was it me. did i do somthing that horrable. I feel just awful. we have been apart for 3 years now and going through a divorce. idk wat to do. my b/f now says i just have a set back with bipolar that i'm perfectly fine but i cant help but to feel that i will ruin this relationship like i did the last. wat do i do. was it me. will i beable to trust my heart again to another.