[Brokenjewellery]

I don't see the point in struggling through every day anymore.
My partner was my best friend, I miss him constantly every day. I work non stop to try an take my mind of it but it doesn't work.. Iv not been back to uni since we split up around 5 weeks ago. so thts my future career down the toilet. People say to me get your life sorted, lose weight look great make him see what he's missing.. We aren't even talking so how can he see.. How can he care..
I have no real support. I feel invisible...
I did nothing wrong in our relationship. I still have no idea why he dumped me after 9 happy years together. I give up trying to figure out what went wrong.
I want to give up completely. I feel completely broken. Completely alone and completely invisible.

[odoyle]

Originally Posted by Brokenjewellery

Iv not been back to uni since we split up around 5 weeks ago. so thts my future career down the toilet.

People say to me get your life sorted, lose weight look great make him see what he's missing..

Can you get back into classes next semester? Surely your career cannot be down the toilet because you've had to miss a month of school. People get sick, hospitalized all the time. Try and see if you can work with the school to rearrange your schedule for the rest of the year to get back on track. If they need "proof" that you've been sick, visit a doctor and try to get a note or diagnosis saying that you have been suffering from severe depression. Be honest and tell the doctor how you have been feeling and what has been going on. I refuse to believe that your future career is ruined becuase of this.

And don't listen to people who tell you to get your life back on track to "make him jealous". Get your life back on track for yourself. If your goal is to lose weight and look great, then do it for you. Goals are so much more rewarding when you set them and meet them for YOU, not for anyone else. You need to forget about him and move on.

I know you're in a low place right now. Try to deal with the school stuff first. It must seem like a daunting task, but start small. Just pick up the phone and call the Uni. Baby steps. One little victory, and you will start to feel better about yourself. I promise.

[lad007]

I am very sorry for your loss, your career is not in the toilet, you can get it back. I had to take time off for personal reasons in undergrad, talk to your profs about getting an incomplete and make it up next term. All is not lost. I graduated and have a successful career. I am sorry this happened to you.

[Brokenjewellery]

I just want to run away or die...
Today was a hard day. I had to keep going to the bathroom at work to try and stop crying on the shop floor. How do ppl get through stuff like this. I can't deal with it. I feel like I wud rather die than face every single day with this pain.. It keeps getting worse. I hurt more every day.

[sunrise]

Originally Posted by Brokenjewellery

I just want to run away or die...
Today was a hard day. I had to keep going to the bathroom at work to try and stop crying on the shop floor. How do ppl get through stuff like this. I can't deal with it. I feel like I wud rather die than face every single day with this pain.. It keeps getting worse. I hurt more every day.

You are depressed. I was severely depressed once. I started seeing a therapist. It really helped. I could not get back to health on my own. Please look for help. Does your university have a counseling center?

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((( Brokenjewellery ))))))))))))))

I agree with the poster who said get your life back on track for Yourself!

I'm so sorry for your pain, please keep sharing here

[Brokenjewellery]

Hello, I have gotten in touch with uni, they are letting me catch up with all the work at home for now I will be going back to classes after the new year..
I am still pretty miserable! Just trying to take every day as it comes I guess.
I don't feel suicidal or anything I just get these intense feelings of sadness and despair and wanting to die is the only way I can express how bad I'm feeling. I just feel empty. But im trying to get better.. Thnx for kind words!! Xkim

[sunrise]

Good to hear from you. I'm glad your university is being flexible and letting you work at home. Check back when you can and let us know how you're doing.