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I met my ex in California, married there, moved to New Jersey, and divorced a year later. We share a child, 17 years old now. I have had the same boyfriend for the 15 years, and reside with him. But, I am still madly in love with my ex. We are best friends and have recently slept together unexpectedly. My boyfriend and I live like we are roommates, have for the better half of 12 years, no intimacy, and blames me of my alcohol issue I had 6 years ago that damaged our relationship and that is why we have no intimacy or closeness. I am unable to financially support myself and my son. My immediate family still resides in California, including a son from a previous marriage. He's 23. I want my ex-husband back, he lives with his family in a large home, has 2 small children from a previous marriage since we split. I know it sounds like WOW! But I cannot stop the heart from caring. He also has some alcohol dependencies and I feel I can help him. I can be me when I am with him, I don't have to hide who I am inside. Unlike my boyfriend who is Lebanese, and his culture is very different. He was born here in the US but was raised very different. There is an 11 year age difference between us that doesn't help. He gives me a good life, and pays for everything, although we have been together for 15 years, there is no co- mingling of monies or talk of marriage. He pays for his affairs and I mine. Odd.... I was not raised this way, I have never gotten used to this. Sometimes I even feel as though I am a household service. To clean, cook, run errands. I do work full time as a special education teacher for disabled preschoolers, but he says I am a glorified babysitter, and it is my job to do household duties and feels he is the bread winner and should do nothing domestic, which he doesn't. I am at my wits end. I want my ex back.
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Mar 29, 2014, 11:30 AM
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