Divorce #2 in the making

I have and proved it with specific examples. Just last night he hung around. I had a not so great day and he could tell. But rather have empathy, I could tell he was savoring the moment. I didn’t have that sentiment towards him when he had a bad day earlier. I found it validating. Hurtful, but validating.

Update: Haven't had to do any legal paperwork lately. Feeling quite happy, actually. I managed to remain "grey rock" during a few instigating instances - hard, but worth it because I feel like I defused the situation which in turn did not upset me.

I watched more videos on the differences between autism and narcissism. I am convinced he is autistic to a degree. I have been watching his behavior through a different lens and it makes sense. Which in a way saddens me because there is a member in my family (nephew) who has Aspergers. I don't live near him so all I know is what his parents tell me but I fear that if he or his parents/family do not help him, he may struggle with relationships when he gets older. But maybe not. Let's hope not.

My soon to be ex-husband made some rather rude comments and I made the choice (as hard at it was at the time!) to not let it bother me. I have learned that although he may not mean it to come across as rude or hurtful, it still does and I cannot live like that forever. Besides, he would also be happier if he could talk to someone whenever about whatever Bible topic comes to his mind.

There is this guy at work that I like, and I think we flirted, but turns out he has a girlfriend. I have not worn my rings in almost a year and there are people at work who think I am single - I have not bothered to correct them because I feel like my love life should be kept private. Some people at work do know that I am married. Only a few close work friends know that I am going through a divorce, but I confided in people I trust. I'm a bit bummed, but I think he likes me - some days? Although I like him, I am keeping it professional but with my ears open in case this girlfriend goes away - LOL. Even if that happened, I don't think I would make the first move.

I have been applying for jobs all over the country - and some abroad. Will see what happens. While it is sad that I do not have a family, at least, I have the freedom to do what I want without making sacrifices. I've made sacrifices for my past partners. I wouldn't mind making sacrifices - for the right man. Oh well.

I could have much, much worse problems. I am grateful to have my health, a mother and siblings who love me, food in the fridge, healthcare, a job, a roof over my head, and clothes/shoes to wear.

It’s very possible you are right and he is on the spectrum. I think people are too quick to label someone a narcissist. Heck even a narcissist will do that is they find a source of power in it. Yet, there are times where behaviors are tied to how a person’s brain is wired and certain things challenge them more.