[fallenangel86]

In my last relationship I lost a lot of weight. My ex was emotionally abusive so I was always too stressed out to eat, and always felt the need to be thin. He never said I was fat, but he treated me like crap in general and so I needed to feel good about myself in someway. In most healthy relationships I've noticed that women tend to gain a little weight since they've become comfortable with their man. I gained a little weight with my first boyfriend who was really just my best friend. He was good to me, but we grew apart. Anyway, I broke up with my abusive boyfriend 4 months ago and I've gained 10 pounds since. I swear I'm happier gaining the weight than being screwed in the head with him. Plus I quit smoking cigarettes, and I think going vegetarian about 3 months ago really helped me quit since I'm not taking in large amounts of saturated fats *that's my theory anyway*
I know what it's like to feel obsessed with weight. When I was 14/15 my diet consisted of bananas, salad, coffee and cigarettes. Even when I was younger, I was always jealous of my older sister and I so badly wanted to fit into her clothes!
I can't say I'm completely over weight issues, but it's definitely developed into a desire to feel healthy. I've been focusing more on my hair, skin, and nails, which automatically demands healthy food choices. It really helps me think about what I'm putting into my body and what it will do for my complection and my brain! You certainly can't forget just a little exercise during the day is a big help. A 30 minute power walk or run, a few push ups, crunches... there's so many. I don't really care for that heroin chic look anymore. It's too much work. Plus, even when i've been that skinny- it still never made me truly happy. I'm 5'2 and i'm 115 since i've gained 10lbs. I'm OK... but still not exactly comfortable. I think I will focus more on strength training and staying away from the scale!

[Broken Wings]

all i have to say is way to go! i'm having major issues eating. I can be starving but I still refuse to eat until a designated time. And if I eat too much, I throw it up and work it off. It's really annoying lol. But I'm not interested in being healthy. Probably has something to do with harming myself.

Anyway I'm happy for you!!!

For BrokenWings((((((((((((((((()))))))))))))))

[Isabella12]

"Plus, even when i've been that skinny- it still never made me truly happy."

Thanks for that little plop of reality there. This is very true. I need to remind myself of this everytime I want to lose weight.