[irish_angel]

<font color="green">I posted a few days ago about the feeling or need to throw up.
Its still there when ever I eat, Ive eaten about 3 times since that day total, and every time no matter how big or small the portion is I get this insane full feeling and want to make myself sick, and it becomes so intense, but I just cant do it.

Is this normal? What should I do, I dont have a T and Im just looking for others to share with me, I know you cant give me a diagnoses or anything just looking for some friendly faces that may understand what Im going thru

Thanks.</font>

[inkblot]

You should have a T. I have actually followed through with that feeling before but not for almost a year, I think. I still feel like I want to, though. It's hard resisting once in a while. It's very hard for me to talk about. If you can talk to a T about it, I recommend you do that. It will help. Purging can have some very nasty health and medical consequences. You don't want to get started.

[irish_angel]

I dont want to get started but now I never want to eat, because of the feeling I get, I just ate a box of Kraft Diner, and I only make half a box and ate about 5 bites no lie and Im full, which being me is funny Im 5`10 and 240 pounds, Im not tiny by any means.

[inkblot]

It still sounds like you have some feelings inside that need to be dealt with. Do find and start talking with a T before you get on the wrong track. If you are having these thoughts, it doesn't take much before things actually start.

[irish_angel]

That is what Im scared of but getting a T is pricey and Im working on it, soon as my hubbys blue cross kicks in.

Today has been a big day for me, in reading and finding out stuff about myself. I now feel sick to my stomach and while im writing this... all that goes thru my head is...... Why are you babbling and go on no one cares, no one is going to take you seriously.

[eskielover]

I have had the nausea feeling which started about a year ago when I had a very bad asthma attack & ended up in the hospital. The asthma attack was caused by the smoke from a bad forest fire close to our home. The smell of smoke was the starting point of when the nausea started. It wasn't really bad at that time but when I got out of the hospital, I ended up with very bad heat exhaustion while out at the ranch with my horses. It was at that point when the nausea really started to hit even more. It has kind of stabalized for a while but was still there so I wasn't able to eat much....you see, I hate to throw up & when I feel that way, I immediately stop eating or taking in even fluids that worsen the feeling.

When the stress of my mothers health (she was dying of cancer) hit in November & the trauma from the home care RN that I caught stealing her ID & threatening me, added to the stress & exhaustion, I ended up with nausea so bad that I couldn't even get a bite of food in without feeling like I would get sick. Like I said, I hate getting sick like that after I had the stomach flu one time on vacation & ended up breaking the blood vessels in my eyes (causing the whites to become completely red) & broke the blood vessels in my face causing it to be spotted red all over. I realized that there are causes for my nausea & unless I am able to control them, my eating becomes almost impossible & my weight just falls off.

I want you to know that we DO CARE.....you are not babbling......& what you are feeling is very serious. Please take care of yourself & hopefully you will soon be able to control your nausea feeling. It is not something you want to act on at all. Buliemia is nothing to get started, however, anorexia (not eating) is dangerous too. The pdoc that the medical hospital had working with me told me that unless I agreed to IV or tube feeding that I would have died within a few days. He exagerated a bit but he was close to being right.

Please get some help as soon as possible & have your GP do some tests like mine did to rule out anything physical. They actually found some physical things that supported the mental issues I was dealing with.....it all ties together.....mental/physical, physical/mental.

Debbie

[irish_angel]

Debbie,

Thank you so much for taking time to read my post, that is why I come here, I am the same way, I hate hate hate being sick and will do whatever I have to do at all cost not to, even not eating or drinking, its been 5 days and Ive eaten 4 times now.

Even water taste bad to me right now, I can count on one hand how many times ive been sick in my life actually throwing up, I dont like it and the thought of it dosnt help much either.

****HUGS**** that you so much for your encouraging words.

Erin