[Nerak]

How do you know if you have an eating disorder? I mean really know. Who am I kidding I think I do - I have never talked about my eating habits with anyone.

I seem to just eat and eat - I had lost about 50 lbs (healthy way) about 2 years ago and for the first time felt good about myself. Well thinking I had conquered my eating demons I let myself "go". I have gained about 25lbs back and feel awful. Yet not awful enough to do anything about it. Lazy? maybe. I say I am going to do something but then I don't. There are times I will eat so much at one meal and feel like blahhhhhhhhhh and so full after. I do not make myself sick so I keep telling myself I do not have a problem.

I do feel like I do not have control over my eating (most of the time).

Now that I have put this down I am thinking of printing it and sending it to my T. Not sure.

Thanks for listening.

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

Karen I really do not know but I have heard that when you CANNOT control it..that is when it is an issue.. If the food or lack of it controls you then it is being used for something other than to fuel the body..I have no experience with ED's and wish you the best. I think it is smart of you to take this to your T as you said

Hugs

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((((((karen)))))))))))))))))))))))

i so know what you're going thru. i lost 87 lbs about 8 yrs ago and have maintained it mostly until this past summer with all the grief and depression. i've put on about 7.

i so know all of the feelings associated with it!

good on you for printing out for t! brave!

kd

[JustBen]

I can very much relate to your situation, Nerak. I've been through the same kinds of things you're talking about, only with bigger numbers. I want to say, "This isn't an eating disorder", but mostly because I don't want it to be true for myself. In all honesty, though, I'm not sure you do have an eating disorder -- writing this out was brave, and talking it over with your therpist is a great idea.

[Nerak]

Thank you Sleeps, Kimmy & Ben.

[Nerak]

Ok I did it - I emailed my T my post here. I even called to tell him that I sent him and email. No turning back now.

[mj14]

Karen,

Here is a description of Compulsive Overeating .

I have just recently been able to face my own Binge Eating Disorder. I don't know why it's been easier to think I'm just fat and lazy than that I have an eating disorder. Perhaps the emotions and issues that the ED is hiding are too scary.

I've been working through a book, "Why Weight? A Guide to Ending Compulsive Overeating" by Geneen Roth, and it's been very helpful. I've also talked about my ED in both individual and group therapy, with mixed results. My individual T has been really good with it, helping me work on the issues that trigger binges, etc. My T for group doesn't seem to get it, though, and wants to make it all about the food. I can't seem to get through to her that it's not about finding the right diet, but about finding other coping mechanisms.

Good luck,
Jo

[Nerak]

Thank you so much for the info. I havea T appointment Wed so we shall see. Thanks again MJ