[Brighid]

I caught phenmonia two weeks ago because I am assuming my immune system is shot to hell due to the last few months of my ED. I was so severly dehydrated I ended up in the hospital TWICE in one week!

I apologize to those who have PMessaged me and it is taking me some time to reply.

I can't take this anymore. I seriously have gone through so many "laxatives", and bingeing seriously bad and purging almost three times a day for the last two months. IT'S TERRIBLE and I KNOW that but I CANNOT control it!

It hurts so bad to have no control.

[Warrioress]

Sending loads of hugs your way

[eskielover]

When your health starts to pay for your eating choices....then it's really time to decide if it's really worth it. Hoping that you use your wise mind to put together your logical thinking with your emotional & realize that the ED you are dealing with isn't worth destroying your health with.

Sometimes we come to a point in our life where our body finally tells us that it's had enough of our doing stupid things to it.....know that ED's are an illness in most cases.....I deal with anorexia when under stress & have been hospitalized because of it.....so I definitely understand.....but I also know that it takes a decision on our part to STOP our not eating or our purging (or overeating included)....then it takes determination to continue on the healthy path no matter what the voice inside says. It takes an internal strength to recover....but to start it all, it takes the desire to stop. You CAN CONTROL IT....you just have to be determined & have convinced yourself how unhealthy your eating patterns are. It also helps to have someone that you are accountable to.....who will be checking on your progress.....someone that holds you accountable for your eating....your actions....especially if you are not strong enough to hold your own self accountable (which is very very difficult).

It's not easy, but it's not impossible if you truly desire to STOP.