The weight problem

What I wouldn't give to have my "old" weight problem back! I used to be "too" skinny. Weighed "a buck and a quarter" as someone very special used to say about me. I'm 5'10". Then I had to go and seek treatment for the stupid muscular dystrophy. It wasn't even that bad, just wanted to be able to walk without pain. Stupid Lyrica....gained weight, got depressed so I was put on Lexapro....they might just as well have given me fat in a bottle. Gained a lot. Of course it doesn't come off once the medicine is stopped. Now I eat my emotions. I've read all the books, I know what I'm doing and why. I just freakin hate it. I hate sitting here and having a major fat roll. I know I should exercise and I start, then I have a hard time and feel like such a loser that I stop. Productive, right? Anyway.

Sending you healing thoughts. Feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk.

Doll

My weight fluctuates often and like you I always idealize the times when I'm skinnier. However, even when I achieve a new lowest weight I'm still not happy - I'm never good enough for myself. I've realized its not really the weight that's the problem, it's my lack of love for myself and my body. So even though you wish you had your old problem, think about what will truly make you happy - do you really need to lose all the weight, or do you need to learn to love yourself just the way you are and form a gradual, long-term weight loss plan to achieve a healthy weight. Don't make the number on the scale the priority, but what you see when you look at yourself in the mirror. No matter what you weigh, you need to see how beautiful you truly are inside and out, rolls and all!