[jazzy123456]

So, I couldn't understand why addicts of drugs or other things, find themselves attracted to eating disorders. Until today, I had a realization--that shopping for food-dieting-etc. all of that gives you a "high" in its own way, especially when you drop pounds in the process. Does that make any sense to anyone? Has anyone experienced this kind of "high" with controlling their eating/appetite. Because, it kinda makes me nervous that I'm this excited about it. I've kinda "relapsed" in a sense, with my eating issues and now I'm trying to cope with it.

[leeches]

I get the 'high' feeling quite often in relation to eating/not eating. Most noticeably when I've dropped some weight, or been fasting for a few days, or when someone comments on how 'skinny' I am... It terrifies me that I actually seem to enjoy it

[Emmaxkp]

I get that "high" when my stomach is growling and I'm just extremely hungry. I feel unstoppable and beautiful. I feel like I own the world. The sick thing is I look forward to it everyday.

[Wysteria]

Originally Posted by Emmaxkp

I get that "high" when my stomach is growling and I'm just extremely hungry. I feel unstoppable and beautiful. I feel like I own the world. The sick thing is I look forward to it everyday.

Dear Emma,

Yes, I've gotten that kind of "high" and it comes from the 'control' you feel over your body. It is what all anorexics feel and it is why we continue to do what we do...it is not healthy and is a part of the addiction and the disease. I hope that you will learn this signal as the disease's way of holding you in its grip and will fight it instead of looking at it as beautiful. It will stop you and can eventually kill you.

I say this only as one that has also been addicted to this high...and know it's lows...and has learned the signs..and know better..while continuing to struggle...

Please get the help that you need to overcome this addiction and this disease now..

I only want healing for you and one day freedom from this horrible disease.

Most Respectfully,

Wysteria Blue

[cocos421]

Hi, I am not by any means anorexic now, but I was 3 years ago. I would love that feeling of my tummy growling. It was like, YES, i have the power to control my eating. Even though it would make me so tired and irritable and weak! I loved the day my husband saw me walking up the street and said i am getting too skinny. I felt ashamed, but a sense of accomplishment. Today, I am healthy, but i can stand to lose about 15 pounds. I will do it the healthy way, though. I am 40 years old and after a while, your body can't take these games anymore.
You have to learn to eat right and get some exercise. You don't have to bust your butt, just move a little! I will lose weight, but slowly, the right way.

[Visioneer]

Weird... I was just thinking about this earlier, putting my laundry away. I gained a few pounds recently due to bingeing and my pants are not fitting right.

I bought a lot of clothes after I lost a large amount of weight, because I felt so good about it, even though I knew it was really unhealthy, I couldn't help but feel charged about it, like I had achieved something. Feeling like I was in total control, but out of control at the same time...

And now they're getting tight. The last few weeks, I've been going up. I'm not stressed out anymore because I got a less stressful job and changed my schedule, and got out of a really stressful relationship. The thing is, now I'm just lonely. And I fill the emptiness with food. So as I was putting my laundry away I remembered how good losing the weight felt, and looking at the clothes, and being so scared I wouldn't fit into them anymore, and that I'm failing.

The thing is, my new job is purely physical. I am literally running around most of the day lifting heavy things repeatedly. I get physically exhausted, and I'm still gaining!

Now I'm just frightened and feel out of control because I've been doing evening and night time binges after work when I'm home alone, or at night before bed, because I'm lonely and nothing else makes me feel better. I really need to stop but I don't know how to fill the emptiness without it. I used to drink and smoke and abuse prescriptions. I don't do any of that anymore, and I've got nothing left. I don't know what else to do especially when I look for someone to talk to and there's no one there the first thing I want to do is go to the store and buy candy and chocolate and ice cream and cookies and just cram it all in. Ugh....

[I had no idea]

Yes! I am bummed when I am feeling fat or when I haven't lost weight or even gained some, but when I do something that helps me to lose weight or if what I've done is paying off, I do get a high and I am a much happier person b/c I think I look better.