[jlock4507]

My weight has been up and down my whole life, and I have battled anorxia, bulimia, binge eating. when I was a teen. I was massively overweight until one summer, I started purging, and not eating for days on end. I lost a lot of weight. But then I got pregnant and knew that I needed to eat for my baby, so i started eating normally again. I gained a ton of weight. I am now obese and hate it. I went from being underweight to being obese in a matter of 6 months. after my daughter was born, i lost the weight again going back into my habits. My husband told me tht if i binged and purged one more timehe would leave me, so i stopped. that's when the compulsive overeating began. I am very overweight nw due to my over eating and i find that everytime i diet i go way overboard....if i eat anything i feel guilty, and if i binge i feel terrible....how can i lose this weight the healthy way without falling into old patterns. I am breastfeeding my son, so i know that i need to eat healthy for him.

[Sunna]

Hello dear sister. We are so many with such stories.

This is what I know, it's our mind that knows not when to stop either dieting or eating. Part of us knows, of course. If I ask you to tell me what should I eat to eat healthy you could draw me a whole diet plan, starting with healthy breakfast, followed with healthy lunch and dinner and few light healthy snacks in between. You could tell me how many carbs, fats, calories, proteins it has. You probably know what I need to eat to get the good fatty acids and minerals too. And yet if you try to do that for yourself you blow it. You eat a good brekfast and half an hour later you find youself at a fridge, looking for more FUUUUUUUUUUD, yes?

I found that doing lots of self-work helped me, or is helping me right now, as we speak. I believe I will be ok from now on, and not fall on my old habits, but I don't know that, not for sure. I found inner peace to be crucial element for me. I resolved to not hate myself or my body (it is the innocent victim of my nasty mind, just like yours).

It's not nice of your hubby to threaten you with an ultimatum, but eating disorders are much like alcoholism, and he probably can't just stand by and watch you destroy yourself anymore. I am sorry he is doing that to you. You need help not threats.

Can you find help for yourself? Support group. Therapy?