[I had no idea]

Hi everyone,

I have PTSD and have had a really horrible year and I lost a substantial amount of weight. I have also had some eating issues in the past, but I was able to recover relatively easily. So I am making progress in my PTSD recovery, and I think I have put on a few pounds (I have learned from the past that owning a scale is not good for me, but maybe now I want one). I am extremely upset and I do not like this at all. It was the only thing good that came out of PTSD--losing weight very quickly. I wanted to loose a few pounds, but instead I have gained by allowing myself to eat things I shouldn't be eating. I have a T and she always says she is worried about my weight, but I just try & brush it off. I desperately want to lose more weight and it just can't happen soon enough. I feel like in order to recover from an eating disorder you have to have some willingness and convince yourself that it is the right thing to do, but I am not anywhere near that and I don't want to be either. Where the heck am I supposed to go from here?

[I had no idea]

And I wonder...Do I even having an eating disorder?

[Christina86]

Talk it out with your therapist, instead of brushing them off? I know you want to lose weight, but there are much healthier ways to do it than developing an eating disorder. We can't diagnose you here, but your therapist seems concerned and you said that you're not at the point right now where you want to change -- but that takes time. Good luck.

[I had no idea]

Originally Posted by Christina86

Talk it out with your therapist, instead of brushing them off? I know you want to lose weight, but there are much healthier ways to do it than developing an eating disorder. We can't diagnose you here, but your therapist seems concerned and you said that you're not at the point right now where you want to change-- but that takes time. Good luck.

I brush my therapist off b/c I don't want to bring attention to my eating issues. Obviously there are healthy ways to lose weight, but I am not exactly concerned with health now. If everyone knows that, than why does anyone have an eating disorder? I am just not feeling the support here when people are questioning why I would brush eating issues off. It's an illness and I'm here for support, not pointing out how I'm an idiot because I can't just listen to my therapist and go around eating burgers all the time to gain weight.