[jessica95]

A month ago, I had it under control. I was constantly thinking of food, but my splurges were rare and I worked out constantly. I'd lost some weight. I'm not sure what happened, but one night I just lost my grip. I have always struggled with eating. It isn't about hunger or even a craving. it's just eating. I sneak to the kitchen late at night and eat a little (lot) of everything. Somtimes when I just can't wait I do it right in front of my family. they see me grabbing one thing after another
I tell them, "I can't stop. I need help." They laugh it off. food is the enemy. I hate myself for being so weak. I hate myself for being so disgusting. what kind of person eats things they don't even like until they're sick? What kind of person gains so many pounds in a week? I do. someone help?

[unaluna]

A human person! It's called feast or famine, that's how your body has reacted since the dinosaur age (as I have stated before, history is not my best subject!). I just started Eat to Live by Joel Fuhrman, and he says if you give your body the nutrients it needs, blah blah blah I stopped listening then. He said it works as well as gastric bypass. I think it's what Bill Clinton is doing. I didn't think I would EVER eat a salad without dressing but I did yesterday (but I did put some hummus on it, and some canned salmon), and I have been doing this for a few days, and am starting to bump into less stuff in my tiny kitchen with my big bum already. healthy healthy healthy you gotta take care of yourself (that was a cartoon I saw once)

[ontheroadtorecovery]

Jessica,

Beating yourself up is not likely to help. You are NOT crazy and you are not alone in eating stuff that doesn't even taste goodbut not being able to stop. It doesn't mean you are weak, stupid or anything else. You have a disease. Recovery is possibleI believe, even though I myself am still battling it. Fight the disease, not yourself!

[arrugas]

Wow, glad to hear I am not alone. I told my BF about my problem and he is now my fiance. He knows now for 8 most that I binge and purge. He tried to help me and I fear he is giving up. So the other day he said to me that he was afraid to marry me because I haven't changed and he is drained. Well that so far has scared me enough to quit the binge eating. I just don't know how long it will last. I fear that I may return. I know I am hurting him and myself and I just don't want that. Does anyone notice that the binge eating happens at night. It seems that it occurs at night for me around 10pm.

[avoice]

Hi welcome to pc. No need to beat yourself up there's always another Day.

Originally Posted by hankster

...I just started Eat to Live by Joel Fuhrman, and he says if you give your body the nutrients it needs, blah blah blah I stopped listening then. He said it works as well as gastric bypass. I think it's what Bill Clinton is doing...

Well if Bill Clinton is doing it...
wait a minute...

Nah, seriously, I might check that out, ta

[unaluna]

Funny girl!

[missbelle]

Even Oprah had said that she would throw food out just so she would not eat it, and then find herself going thru the garbage to take it back

See, not so bad...I binge too when I am nervous, etc....I have to learn not to have it in the house but when I buy it I think I will have the willpower to just have "one!". Well I don't!!!!!!!

So glad you found this site......Jessica you are not bad, or weak or anything. Unfortunately, like myself it is our drug of choice and it can cause as much damage as the real stuff. I used to go to Overeaters annonymous which is a 12 step program. They may have one where you live. You could check on it and some online sites as well. Believe me there are a lot of us out here struggling with eating disorders. Its one day at a time Jessica!

Welcome!!

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