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Ok so I have pdoc, I go to Ed support groups not willingly (mother's idea) if you read my last post it talks all about it and oh yes let's not forget my wonderful nutritionist/dietician......

I have all these channels of "support" and honestly its too much everyone wants something from me like ugh my major problem I'm having is my Ed group I decided to stay well not that I had a choice but anyways today we did goal setting and in it we had to do a start date and target date/finish. The goal I picked was to limit my purging as well as binging and I've talked to my nutritionist and doctor and I've made process from binging/purging everyday several times a day to only 3-5 times a week and only a few times. Some may think that's not huge but to me it is greatly.

So let me get bck to group my goal was to once again cut down purging to 2 times a week just to try it ya know and I didn't want a target date as to when I will accomplish this because its going to take time like it did with me cutting back down from the first that took a year and some change but I do slip up from time to time with purging for than 3 to 5 times a week but overall I've managed to keep it just at that.

I just want her to understand that the goal I want to complete didn't have a target date I just kept at it with many many many fails and for her to want an finish date how the hell am I'm going to do that. I'm just about to not make a goal and just whatever I won't be punished but I can't set myself up to fail and that's how it will be......I'm too done!!!!!!