[WantingtoHeal]

I haven't posted in this forum before. I have a long history of anorexia, bulimia, and compulsive overeating.

I decided to enter therapy again about 6 weeks ago and change up meds with a new pdoc and new therapist. Well, I've been restricting my food intake quite a bit in this timeframe. I don't know if I'm going to get stuck in it again or what's going to happen. I know my thinking isn't right, because my goal is to be as skinny as possible.

i guess it's some kind of control issue. Must be. It feels safe to me. Comforting. Better. Like I have something to hold on to.

That's it. Thanks.

[purplelephant]

WTH, have you told your therapist/pdoc that you've been restricting? Does this relate to the meds you've started?

I don't want to overstep my boundaries and offend you, but I'm going to give you my take on anorexia real quick: IT SUCKS. But of course you already knew that :P And of course I get that it FEELS like you're gaining control but you're not. It's a deadly disease controlling you and you have to fight it. What does it give you to hold on to? Hunger pangs? And once those go away, incurable chills? The risk of heart failure? Bad hair and skin? Isolation? Tormenting yourself over exercise and calories? You have GOT to work through this. Please confide in your treatment team if you haven't already. PM me if you need to. For comfort, or to let someone know your meal plans, or whatever. But seek help from the professionals, too.