[itsjustme111]

Hey there everyone. Its been a long time since I have been on and I miss all of you.

I have gained alot of weight recently as I am pregnant. It is so hard to tell myself every minute of every day that I have to stay healthy to ensure my baby's health. With this weight gain has come some feelings of self hate, sadness, concern, and depression (although its not all from weight gain), but I feel like I have lost control of a big part of me.

I am excited about our baby, please don't get me wrong and I will do what it takes for this baby to grow and be healthy. The man in my life right now is wonderful and supportive. He treats my kids like his own and they are happy to have their mom back and this new guy cheering me on. I love him dearly. This is his first child so the excitment grows everyday. You should have seen him at our last ultrasound---just watching him brought tears to my eyes. Our baby is growing wonderfully at 15 weeks. Our due date is October 11th but my doctor wants to do a c-section because of my difficulties with my bicornuate uterus.

With all of that: does anyone have suggestions for me too keep focus on the future. What I mean is with gaining all of this weight--no starvation, purging, or laxatives-----in all honesty this is one of the hardest things that I have gone through and I am scared. I find myself to be teary all of the time and as much as I want the happiness to stay, it never stays long. My doctor wants to put me on anti-depressants but that scares me. But I am still suffering from severe nightmares and not sleeping well. My t is still with me, and I thank God for him everyday. He is trying desperately to help me and I appreciate his efforts. But I do feel like I am slipping and I refuse too harm our baby in anyway or put my kids through another roller-coaster with my illnesses.

Please, if anyone has suggestions I am more than happy to hear them.

Thanks,

Justy

[SweetSunshine]

Justy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am sorry hon right now I dont know what to tell ya cause I am so daggone excited to see you around again!!!!!!!! I have missed you soooo much! ME WITTLE HEARTS GOIN PITTER PATTER!!!!!!! YER HAVIN A BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You stinker you! You doin this hehehehehe lol. OMG A BABY!!!!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!!!! WOOO HOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! Love ya darlin! Lemme come down from this WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I'm on here and see if I can offer up any kind of useful advice to you! If not ... you know Bethy is always here for ya!

HUGZ~
Bethy

[itsjustme111]

HEHEHE. Thanks dear, you made you laugh.

I could use tons of support right now so if you don't have any suggestions then just keep doing what u just did.

Thanks so much. ((((((((((BABIES))))))))))

......and they think baby might be a little girl

[Sabrina]

I am not too sure what to say to all the turmoil you are feeling and going through. Pregnancy is such an exciting and wonderful time to be marred by the eventual weight gain. Especially for those suffering from ED's.

All I can suggest is that you talk and talk and talk - as much as you want about what you are feeling and going through - get it out there - here - a journal - your man - a therapist - a tree - anything - just let it all out. Obviously on a more practical level, and I know it is easier said than done, stick to healthy eating and mild exercise as best you can.

My thoughts are with you and the baby!