Cracking down

So I barely ate on tue or wed, in essence, starving myself. I went to the doctor and lost weight; not allowed to say how much, lol! He got scared that I didn't eat for 2 days, so he told me to come back in 1 week instead of the usual 2. I hate that he's pressuring me; it's like lose weight or else in my head Then I ate for 3 days. Now I'm planning on starving until the next time...
AAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just want to eat healthily. I look at the toneitup girls all day. They have protein shakes and pancakes and fruit and veggies all day long. They have gorgeous bodies, hair and faces. They're not afraid to walk outside and flaunt it. They're so confident and they show it. Why can't I just get a grip and do the same??? Nothing will happen to me if I do, because after all, it's all in my head!

im so sorry......... Hopefully things will get better. How ya been since then?

...Blue

I've been pretty good lately! I am going back to the doctor in a month, which means I'm making progress. I decided to try & give up the starving, because it really wasn't getting me anywhere. So now I'm struggling with normal eating, but I'm finally getting somewhere! Thx!

awwe well I'm proud of you for deciding to change... its gonna be tough but i believe in you! if you're ever struggling, find comfort and support on PC.

(((((( lbdrox ))))))


...Blue

Thx. It's getting tough again, unfortunately. I did the normal eating/ binge cycle, and now it's back to under eating. Not as much this time though. I'm eating enough that I'm not bingeing, but not enough to really be full...