[Moodswing]

I dont know where I went mentally but I came home and ate everything I could get my hands on. I couldn't stop it. Not even sure what I ate. It was as if someone else took over my body. Never tasted anything. Also purging never felt so good. I thought for sure but of my stomach was going to fall out.

I was doing great. I thought I was cured. I am so pissed at myself.

I will be sitting on my pity potty if anyone needs me.

[Arethusa]

You are doing great. Sure you had a setback. But doesn't anyone? No one's expected to not relapse or fall back into old habits. Don't beat yourself up too much. Instead go and try to figure out what is making you binge/purge. Get to the root of the problem so that next time you will not have a similar relapse.

Best wishes!

[spondiferous]

I agree, it's a setback. And you can use it to learn more about yourself. Also, I believe that you have every right to sit on the pitty potty. If we can't feel sorry for ourselves then who can, really?
I heard not too long ago that what keeps most people locked in the vicious cycle of disordered eating is shame. The shame we heap on ourselves when we've 'failed'. Made me think about it a bit differently.

[Gr3tta]

The drawing board can be a great place to draw new challenges, new triumphs, and new futures for one's self. I'm really truly sorry you had such a set back. But it only becomes a huge problem if you let it be one. Don't beat yourself up. You've bee doing great! Which is only evidence that you still can.
Please be strong. Thank you for sharing this.