[Victoria'smom]

So I got my anual 'how f'd up did Ed leave my body' check up. I also had my dexa-scan that I get every 10 yrs, every 5 if I keep it up. Well most everything came back fine but my thyroid was low . So now I'm on thyroid med. Now ED is in high gear and I'm on meds that will effect my weight. Worse of all, the instructions of the meds take away most of my safe food for most of the day and leaves me with tons of excuse. It's only a matter of time before I fit the full requirement of anorexia. I know this will end badly but I can't bring myself to care. I know I have a weight check in 5 weeks and 6 wks. I think I was more okay with having a stable weight and low metabolic rate because it hid my eating disorder well.

How do I warn my treatment team that my new meds are effecting my eating disorder and the meds will make my weight unstable until I hit my new 'normal'? What if it never stabilize because I do have a small group of foods/drinks? On top of all that my uncle has begged me to stop drinking soda (my one and only beverage and 2/3 + cal. Of the day) out of respect I want to do that or ED is tricking me. I've started questioning my motives for everything and really don't know when I should trust my thinking.

The suckies part is that my moods been stable for about a month and ED can mess it all up. I'm happy stable and my whole family is stable, I don't need ED to mess that up.

Thanks for letting me vent.

[gayleggg]

It sucks when our psyhical issues interfere with our mental health. I'm on a blood thinner that caused my doctor to take me off all my psych meds. I'm a depressed wreck, so I understand what you are talking about. I would just be honest with my doctors about how the thyriod medicine is affecting you. Even though, choosing between your pyshical health and you mental health can be a tough decision. Good luck with your ED. Hope you can stay happy and healthy.
Gayle