[AmmoniaJane]

So, I've been good, I haven't been fasting or purging for a few months, and for maybe a year I haven't been doing that as often as I used to. I've been watching my calorie intake, but I've been keeping it at a healthy level, I've been taking pole dancing lessons for a year, I've lost weight the HEALTHY way, and I'm happy about that; but now my fiance has a flu like thing, and I'm getting it too, and I have absolutely no appetite.
I'm trying so hard to be healthy and make sure I eat enough because it's healthy and necessary, and because if I don't, my body will **** up it's metabolism again, I KNOW this, but there's a part of my brain that's still screaming about how much faster I could lose weight if I just don't eat, and how easy it would be.
It's just so hard to ignore that part sometimes, even when I know it's wrong.

[sunsetsunrise]

yes. its hard to ignore the voice, the thoughts. Sometimes I imagine what a beautiful angel would say to me out of love from her heart. To counter balance that thought or my voice.

Sometimes I imagine Glinda the good witch in wizard of oz. And imagine her saying loving truths to me. I do it as soon as I think or say the negative message about myself. I think the truth comes from the heart. Its that mind that is pesky. I know that all too well. I make sure to say or think something postive every time I hear myself saying or think the destructive messages. I hope you feel better soon

[Fuzzybear]