Hi Everyone;

This is the first time in my life that i'm making a post about eating...not sure if I have a problem but it's been a while now where I've concentrated so much on food and eating that i'm starting to feel a little sick about myself, I've definitely gained weight, I don't have a big build, i'm short and have a sort of petite build, but I can definitely see and feel that I've gained weight, especially in my face where it always shows first. I also feel it in my clothes. I weighed myself the other day and got such a freight.

When I wake up in the morning, the first thing I think about is what am I going to eat, and that is sort of my motivator to get up. When I get to work I start to think it's such a long time till about ten o'clock when i'd want to eat something again and then again I can't wait for lunchtime at twelve. It's like i'm totally dependant on food these days. Over the weekend and especially on sundays i'd be hungry constantly and will often indulge in a bag of chips. It's like I only feel happy or calm for that instant that i'm eating. I know it's other stresses in my life that causes me to turn to food, but I don't see that stress disappearing soon, my husband is bipolar 2 and suffers from severe depression and anxiety. His mood often or most of the time affects so that I don't really feel like doing anything else, I've considered exercising, but then again, I can't seem to motivate myself to get so far. I would definitely like to get a handle on this overeating thing. Not even sure if I can call it overeating or if I do have a problem. I'm on a light anti-depressant myself. Anyways, thanks for listening

[doggiedo]

I'm glad you came here and posted. That's a huge step. It sounds like you are dealing with supporting your husbands emotional needs and your own....that's a lot. I can understand where u are about being petite and it showing easy on your frame- I am the same way but not sure what advice to give you other than maybe talk to someone and see if you can understand why food makes you feel better than actually 'feeling.' Not sure if that makes any sense at all. Hang in there....