[caring_whiterose]

Hello everyone.



I did write on another forum but not everyone could see. Ok so this is going to sound stupid but I recently moved back with my parents (not good). I also have a lot of other things going on. I used to have an eating disorder. About a week ago I ate a lot and I thought how this is going to make me gain weight and I wasn’t the size I was in the past. Then I said to myself why not just extremely cut down on eating. I know it sounds stupid. I have been trying to eat a certain amount of calories a day sometimes it went it went higher. This all started last week. I do write down everything I eat and calories. I know I threw myself into this (stupid I know). But I feel like it isn’t an eating disorder because I know what is causing it and why I did it. I guess I am looking for reassurance that it isn’t an eating disorder?

[Victoria'smom]

It's not your fault because it tends to be our go to coping with stress. Just "because I know what is causing it and why I did it" does not mean your not slipping. I think a lot of people know why. Try your best to bring yourself back to healthy and try to get a therapist.

Sorry that I can't reassure you.

[caring_whiterose]

Thank you Miguel'smom. I guess I rather deny what is going on.

[Victoria'smom]

[caring_whiterose]

So hi everyone. I haven't been on forever or talking or wrote forever. It's actually scary coming back and talking because I don't know most people. Everyone is new to me. Well of course except for the people I know. I guess I was scared to come on because I thought it would trigger things but I realized it wouldn't. I have hidden myself in a shell again and I feel like I'm back at square one. I'm really scared about everything and things that have happened. I wish I could just say it all like I used to but I can't. I don't know what to do. I'm scared to open up totally again. I really want too and need too but something is stopping me.