[Tangerine87]

I feel jealous often of other women who are thinner than me and it pisses me off. It's worse when my former enemies who used to be fat and now look great. It makes me pissed, jealous and hate my body even more. I want to be thinnest. I'm not thin anymore because I've just been gaining weight left and right. My metabolism is messed up.

[ayana95]

( Trigger Warning) }. {Just To Be Safe}.....I used to be thin. Too thin. I gain a lot of weight on my medication. I am healthier yet ,the doctor doesn't think so. One report called me obese. I am very short for a woman in her 30's. I'm starting to lose weight. Don't know how long that will last.
I think my metabolism is messed up too. I want to find a happy medium with my weight. I don't want to be obese with my weight and height but I also don't want to starve my self again. I get jealous of people that I see again. I want to fit into my old clothes but I don't know if that's such a good idea. My doctor said that best beginning thing is to walk. I just need the motivation.

[eskielover]

I have always liked the thin look but the anorexia look is ugly & horrible when there is nothing but bones. I had promised myself growing up that I wouldn't allow myself to gain weight like my mother did. She wasn't obese but was overweight for her small size. I did actually surprise myself when there were a couple of people who were talking about how small I was but comparing me to another small person, she was smaller....sort of triggered a wanting to get smaller.....but have learned to be happy within my safe low acceptable range no matter what.

Yes, walking & swimming are both great to start weight loss.....I kept my weight down when I was pregnant years ago in the 1970's while everyone else was gaining huge amounts, I didn't gain only a few pounds more than the weight of my baby by swimming every day.

Now that my migraines are under control with pain medication, I'm able to be active again & I love to ride horses & work on my farm.......it definitely keeps the weight down just being active. When I was in good shape while working, I played racquetball every day at lunch with the guys, a really wonderful work-out. Finding some activity that interests you is the key to the motivation.......

I understand the struggle you both are having.....weight is such a nuisance problem to deal with.

[Grey Matter]

I get like this. Especially with my sibling. She is extremely naturally thin and eats what she wants to and enjoys food and I am stuck cursing my genetics even though people tell me I am thin. Egh.

[thickntired]

UGH! I feel the same way when I see thin women. Once I was so bad that I told a girl she needed to eat a sandwich?! It is really irritating to know the difference by experience in how I am treated by society depending on my weight. I hate feeling like everyone thinks I just "let myself go." I hate that expression, and it is almost exclusively used for women. Before I got on anti psychotics I was at a healthy BMI and now I'm obese. I injured my back from extreme exercising on Seroquel. I read a medical journal that said mental patients taking anti-psychotics need to be taught to change their lifestyle by adding exercise and a healthy diet. You have got to be frigging kidding me because I ate a healthy diet (no starving) did pilates and walked 30 miles a week on Seroquel. I continued to gain until I plateaued at the highest weight I have ever been in my life. As soon as I quit the med I've been losing weight. So, let's blame it on the patient for being lazy and binge eating. The doctors I saw lectured me on obesity and looked at me with contempt when I explained my lifestyle and the medication weight gain. *I'm not advocating going off meds, and everyone has different side effects.* Finally I have a pdoc who respects my belief that my health risks outweigh (ha ha pun) my mental benefits.

***TW In the past 20 years I have weighed in double digits and obesity. I read that bipolars can have extreme weight gains and losses.