[Willowtrees]

I have relapsed badly. Im at what i consider to be a low weight compared to the last several years, but am currently medically stable according to drs. I am right on the line between normal and underweight (if mentioning that isnt allowed please delete), so i am very concerned about what to do next. There is an iop center in my state for eating disorders that can take me, however, i have no choice but to leave the state and live with my mom for 4-10 weeks to escape domestic violence until my new housing comes through. My insurance is not good in that state except for emergencies. Im low income. I know I am only going to lose more weight as it is entrenched in my brain and attempting to fight it on my own has gotten me close to nowhere. What are my options? What should I do? I do not want to burden my mother if my health begins to decline, but staying here is extremely unsafe and I have no other option but to leave. Im sorry if you guys cant think of anything. I just wanted to get that out there.

[buttrfli42481]

What about a DV shelter?

[eskielover]

If you are anything like me, that living condition you are/were in is one of the triggers for your anorexia. When life feels totally out of control, the one thing left we can control is what we don't/do eat depending on which way our mind works.

I found that once I was out of that living situation I was in, a lot of the issues (including anorexia) were finally more easily controlled. For me, stress is one of the key triggers for my anorexia...no matter what kind of stress.

You may find that living with your mom in a more stable environment that your life will become more stable also along with your eating.

I had just been medically hospitalized for anorexia after also going through a trauma while my mother was dying of cancer. It was finally able to leave my bad marriage 2 1/2 years later. I was able to keep my weight stable at the lowest healthiest weight for that time.....then I bought a wonderful little farm 2100 miles away & it was like a chance to start my life over even at the age of 55. Being alone & happy & free for the first time in my life, it was amazing because I knew that living alone with 7 dogs at the time dependent on my wellness, even the stress I went through still dealing with messes my H created, I was able to stay stable...then with time I was able to gain & really get healthy again. It wasn't until I left that 33 year marriage that I realized the previous anorexia issue was also because of the bad marriage but I couldn't see it until I got out of it. Realized that food was the only thing I could control through those years & I always had a tendency to loose weight when stressed anyway so put the 2 together & it definitely was the groundwork for my anorexia. Add to that, it seems like a NORMAL human trait that once weight loss starts, it's not that easy to stop from wanting to see the scales go lower & lower. Even my MIL who never dealt with anorexia went onto a diet & she had the hardest time stopping the weight loss when she got to the low weight she wanted to get to....there is something almost addictive for EVERYONE when we get into weight loss mode so when there is anorexia thinking of wanting to be even more thin.