[anxiety247]

My new therapist is a trauma therapist and she said from very 1st appt she needs me to go into an inpatient program and or partial program for the eating disorder before we can do any of the trauma work.

Being the therapist is not a ED specialist its not like she can refer me anywhere and the one place in the area does not take my medicare (only insurance) I have looked into many places and have been denied because my weight is not low enough. Then the local day programs here will not work with me because of the eating disorder. Really??? Come on what do I have to do loss more freaking weight before some place takes me. I just want to get better so i can work on the heart of whats causing the ed the trauma to move on.

I talked to NEDA they do not know where to refer me. I talked to people in city I live in Mental health board and NAMI and again nothing. What do i do??

[ShaggyChic_1201]

I'm sorry you're having to deal with the frustrations of finding help. I have bulimia, not anorexia, so my weight isn't a determining factor. I know they admit people with EDNOS too, whose weight may or may not be <85% of IBW, so could it just be the place you called?

I've twice been to Renfrew's Philly ED inpatient (1989 and 2001). I researched it in 2011 and wouldn't have gone back. I would have gone to the Eating Disorder Center in Denver, however.

I've also been to the Meadows for their trauma program, which didn't really address ED, but tried to be supportive of me. In my experience, there are pros and cons to each way. At ED place, you can be medically stabilized, if that is a necessity. They are attuned to refeeding and are supportive of the anxiety that comes with weight gain. I found that the constant focus on food and how I felt about food was a bit unhelpful for me. I was trying NOT to obsess about food, and here they were talking about it 24/7. Moreover, I had my fair share of ptsd issues while at ED place and they had very little in place to help me. To be fair, that was 14 yrs ago though.

I had much better success going to the trauma place first, following it up with ED PHP and then IOP, but again, I didn't need weight restoration.

I know Butterfli was able to get a single use agreement with someplace in Iowa to accept her Missouri Medicare. Maybe she'll have some advice.

At any rate, please don't intentionally lose weight. Don't give the hospital your power.

[waggiedog]

my attempt at eating more "normal" but healthy food has completely backfired. I've already gained weight faster than I imagined and feel like a total c*** heap. Feel like hiding away just as I've always done when I become a great big fat ugly cow again. I feel the total opposite of how confident I feel when reaching my "ideal" weight and size ~ which is nowhere near where I am now. Feel like self harming to pay myself back for being so stupid as to even think I could eat like "normal" people, it's never been the case and never will be. Back to so called "dangerous" methods to get, and stay thin. X

[eskielover]

My new therapist is a trauma therapist and she said from very 1st appt she needs me to go into an inpatient program and or partial program for the eating disorder before we can do any of the trauma work.

That's kind of backwards thinking that the ED world seems to have because it's the trauma issues that you aren't able to deal with that makes your ED worse.....it's directly tied together. If they could help you treat the trauma, the ED would come under control......

It's still the bass ackward way of thinking that they had back in 1995....you would think that they would learn in 20 years from all the examples they deal with.....but like in my case, they & I had no idea what issues were REALLY behind the anorexia (in my case)...but if they had looked deeper & helped me look deeper, it would have been obvious.

I know after the huge trauma I went through & ended up in the medical hospital for my last go around with anorexia, my MD & Pdoc kept telling me to find an ED treatment place to go to....LOL...every one I called wouldn't even deal with the trauma that caused the ED to hit me again......they just wanted to deal with ED's that are caused by body image issues.....MOST AREN'T.....most have deep underlying issues even if it does look like body image issues that are much more serious than that....but they aren't capable of REALLY handling the causes of the ED's & then they treat & push you out the door only to have us end up back again because the REAL issue wasn't dealt with.