while i was in the hospital i didnt eat and i lost weight in 7 days i have been restricting a lot since i got out and i really want to start starving myself again i feel like i need to.

[Yzen]

Did you talk to anyone about not eating while in the hospital?

Originally Posted by Yzen

Did you talk to anyone about not eating while in the hospital?

not really no my psychologist knows now but i no one really talked to me about it much in the hospital.

(((((hugs))))

we're here for you

[Yzen]

How are you feeling Eden?

Originally Posted by Yzen

How are you feeling Eden?

Still not great I haven't eaten today and don't plan to so idk I just really really want to loose more weight a lot more weight.

[Yzen]

You can't forget about your health. By not eating you don't get the nutrients for good health. I don't want you to feel lousy mentally, have no energy and risk your health.

I am taking vitamins to try and lessen that.

[eskielover]

They knew I had anorexia when in medical & psych hospitals. My pdoc was constantly monitoring my weight. Didn't get me to eat but they knew where I stood

[tifferific]

I'm sorry you are in this spot. So am i.

i have started chewing food and spitting it out. it is gross but i feel to guilty to swallow.

[runningonresilience]

Originally Posted by eden1515

while i was in the hospital i didnt eat and i lost weight in 7 days i have been restricting a lot since i got out and i really want to start starving myself again i feel like i need to.

I know that you genuinely feel like starving will help and my words may not change anything, but please let me tell you that it will only help temporarily. I'm unsure if you've been diagnosed with an eating disorder or are just having these thoughts recently, but it doesn't matter because either way, restricting your intake is hurting you mentally and physically. I used to use my anorexia to "medicate" my depression and it worked initially. It worked so well I was determined it was the only way. But when the high from starving wears off, it plummets you into an even more desperate emotional state and simply compounds your depression. I used to hate when dietitians would tell me that if I would just nourish myself, my brain would start to heal and so would my mood. I thought it was nonsense. I was in control. I knew best. But all my best thinking got me was another admission to an inpatient unit. I've lost count of how many times that has happened. What I can clearly count are the years, the years I lost on bed rest with a tube up my nose wondering how it got this bad. Maybe I'm preachy or harsh but it's only because I've lived that truth.

I know that with depression comes an apathy that extends to appetite and food. I'm experiencing it right now. I got out of the hospital last week and they sure do not give you any incentive to eat. I slipped up there and stopped myself. But I had to force myself to remember the frailty, the consequences of that solution.

I don't know how you will read this, but please, if all you do is pick up an apple, or a yogurt, or a protein bar and take 1 bite and swallow it - it will have been more than enough. Because even though you don't realize it now, you are worth it. My heart goes out to you. I'm no shiny success story but I'm here if you need further support.

i have been eating actually a binge but i am going between fasting and binging and it is horrible i dont know what to do anymore it is making me want to cry.