[Sarmas]

I've been on a diet. My life is like one big dieting event. I'm doing a kerogen if diet with no carbs and basically I just have protein shakes and a little protein throughout the day. One of the people from my job invited me to a dinner that I sort of have to go to. No excuses accepted and it's a Steakhouse. They know how I feel about dieting and they're expecting me to eat "regular". I only have one carb day which was Sunday. They want me to order a steak and cheesecake tomorrow night and I'm not sure how to react to all of this. I'm thinking of taking a laxative afterwards to get rid off it. I'm not sure how else to deal with it. I guess I'm overwhelmed with life itself and now this is an additional stressor.

[Smurfette77]

How did dinner go? Was it as bad as you thought it was going to be? You mentoned taking laxatives...if you can I would avoid them....they effed up my body good and proper...it's so hard getting your body to functon normally again after abusing them. I'm currently freaking out because I'm going away for the weekend with my partner's family. It's crazy the anxiety around these areas where and when we lack control.

[Sarmas]

Originally Posted by Smurfette77

How did dinner go? Was it as bad as you thought it was going to be? You mentoned taking laxatives...if you can I would avoid them....they effed up my body good and proper...it's so hard getting your body to functon normally again after abusing them. I'm currently freaking out because I'm going away for the weekend with my partner's family. It's crazy the anxiety around these areas where and when we lack control.

I'm not sure how it went. lol It's like I want to eat like a "normal" person but I can't. I didn't think the food tasted as good as I expected. I guess it didn't meet my expectations for the anxiety that I was experiencing beforehand. I did weigh myself this morning and I haven't gained. If anything I've a lost a pound of something but you're absolutely right about being in control. I had my "cheat" day last Sunday and I wouldn't have otherwise. I didn't plan for this dinner thing to happen and it threw me off. I'm thinking there are times that I feel stuck in a situation unless there's something that motivates me to change or an event like last night. I would've never eaten well if that scenario didn't exist. I guess I should look at it as a way to get my feet wet. I'm aware that I can't keep eating the way I do and I would never encourage anyone else to do so but at this point I do feel stuck. Usually if I know I'm going somewhere then I do prepare my meals ahead of time and that's what I've been doing for a little over a month. Anyway I'm over it now and just continuing on. As long as I don't have any other offers then I'm ok.