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I've been doing really well for the past, say, two weeks. I even got my weight back up to "normal" (barely...by 2 or 3 lbs but still...) and now I find myself starting to freak out. I've been restricting all day at school and stuff, then coming home and eating 500 or so cal. Then at night I get mad at myself for restricting so I stuff my face to get over the 1000-1200 line....arghhh.

I feel so completely fat...I'm having trouble comprehending how my body...at this weight...is NORMAL?!

I just needed an ear is all I guess....and perhaps some encouragement?? anyone??

I'm here.....

words of encouragement... here goes.. but you may not agree... soooo please... I'm trying.. cause I am "just hanging" in there too.. things have been rough lately..

I have that "body comprehending" thing too..

Soooooooo.... I have been trying to "live in my body"... and visualizing it as "normal" till it gets to feel normal..

I KNOW.. that if you and I hang in there long enough.. our brains will be re-trained to feel that our bodies are "normal" at this weight..

I just know it......

lol.... like "getting used to a new hair style" and NO... I am not making "light" of the feeling... cause.. it is a hard feeling.. but eventully.. it will be "normal" and not something that is "different"..

And soooooooooooooooooooo wonderful... at getting your weight up.... soooooooooo great..... soooooooo good....

I am soooooooooo happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am just sooooo happy...