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I am not sure where my ED falls into, please bare with me.

At the age of 11-12, I developed an eating disorder and was diagnosed but never received treatment for it. I never knew if it was anorexia or bulimia, because it happened to be both and they never gave me a certain one, hence why I only was diagnosed with an ED.
When I was 12, I lost over 20 pounds and weighed 108 lbs(my weight at the time I was in the 130s) but I also gained too much then lost, repeating the same process until it just stopped one day. I remember that it was three months before my 13th birthday, and then I just gained weight until my family considered me healthy again.

Here I am, 14 years old and starving myself again, I am not sure what weight I currently am but last time I checked, I was 147 lbs. Now I wouldn't be wondering, but the thought of food really disgusts me and I see myself.. overweight. I find myself enjoying the feeling of an empty stomach, poking my body as I call it names over and over again.
Then yesterday I over ate then purged until I was shaky and nearly crying.
I don't know what to do or what to think, I'm only 14 years old.
I keep cutting my food small and spiting it out when given the chance, or hiding my food until everyone is gone just to throw it away, making excuses that I'm not hungry.

Gosh, I'm only 14.