new and confused

Hey everyone. I am coming to this site because i need some help and i don't feel like i can get extremly helpful advice from all my supporters becasue they haven't really been through this. Last Feburary i became really upset with myself and started restritcting which turned into me almost not eating and whenever i felt i had eaten someting "unhealthy" i would purge. I lost a lot of wait i finally decided to get help in about july. I turned myself around for a while and felt great. I haven't heavly restricted or purged for a few months now.
However, i have gone through a lot of binge eating and have gained a lot of weight back. My mind is telling me to go back to restricting and purgin but this is not a cycle i want to get bakc into. I really want to lose the weight and feel comfortable again but i don't know how to do it any other way... any thoughts?...

Sounds like you are wavering on the boundary between binge eating and falling into a binge-purge anorexia cycle...both dangerous routes. Maybe you could study up a bit on what constitutes a healthy diet and then direct all of your energy toward that...no more and no less. Make yourself a "food schedule" sort of thing, and stick to it that way you know you're eating healthy, but not binging...??

best wishes,
lil.

Hi Crambo, I have struggled with an eating disorder since I was a teen--I am 36 now. At first anorexia and then bulimia too. I had some stressors in my life a few weeks ago that caused me to restrict my diet way too much. But, other than the last 2-3 weeks, I have been doing really well and eating in moderation without purging.

I was on a diet for 22 months and lost all my excess weight the right way. I lost over 40 lbs by just eating sensibly. No fast food. Limited amounts of meat and bread. Lotsa veggies and fruits. Butter substitute. Diet soda.

22 months is a long time to be on a diet, but I had to take it slow and not fall back into restricting and purging. For me, it was all about eating in moderation--that is a very difficult thing for me to do. For this to be even remotely possible, I had to be in therapy and work on my personal issues that affected my body image. I had to deal with my emotions instead of eating them away.

I urge you to come up with some type of plan about how you are going to eat and not restrict, purge or binge. Take it slow an don't try to change everything overnight.