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#201
It's very frustrating having an eating disorder but to really enjoy cooking and learning new recipes lol. how odd.
I'm doing good. I got a book at the used bookstore called "The Eating Disorder Sourcebook" (3rd Edition) by Carolyn Costin. It seems like it's packed full of useful information. ![]() __________________ R.I.P mom ![]() “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#202
this week... not as bad as it could be
bearing in mind that things like my fridge and my cupboard have recently been fully stocked again this week I only really had 1 bad day.. and that day was so bad I couldn't eat my dinner (or not all of it) |
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I am feeling a great need to burn calories today. Even took a walk after lunch despite running and a little walking this morning. I'm not doing good. I am burning more calories exercising than I can eat, considering I don't binge. I tend to eat normally, maybe a bit healthier than some people, not as healthy as others and don't count the calories anyway. And considering we have no money, now I almost never eat out. Stupid ED is screaming I should walk AGAIN, but this time I am not. I have been around the block so many times today, it is a wonder I have not been reported to the police. I have no idea what the neighbors think, if I'm hyperactive, training for a marathon (I usually warm up going around the block a bit). The walking, I don't know. I haven't had that compulsion in awhile, and since a lot of the houses down this road are rentals or owned by elderly people moving out, the neighbors change quite a bit. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. --Robert Frost |
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#205
I had a haven't eaten yet today, I did have a glass of v-8. I am getting a little hungry, so I guess I will make a some left overs.
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__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. --Robert Frost |
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#209
I'm fine for the time being and have eaten normally all week with no binging or purging, but now that finals are coming up like I mentioned before, things are going to get more crazy and I'm hoping I can keep things under control.
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Sorry, I don't remember exactly. that was 20 years ago. I graduated Dec. 2000 and am 40 years old now. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. --Robert Frost |
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#211
Too much exercise today.
ED jumping with joy. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. --Robert Frost |
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Blueberry book, I just sent you PM to ask u about running, etc. So I'm a tad hungry but don't want to eat. What else is new? And I gotta start cooking again now, for someone else. I have to cook ALOT & I pretty much hate it. I don't like entering the stupid kitchen, at all.
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I had breakfast which was okay (bacon sandwich), then I had 2 chocolate bars and some potato chips- only 1 bag, which I suppose isn't too bad
but then at dinner I really let myself down- in sted of eating 8 yorkshire puddings like I usually do I had 14, which is almost double what I have- almost |
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#216
I was restricting for awhile but I think I'm finally realizing I have to give up the ED. Every aspect of it. I can't hold onto certain parts that I feel like I can "keep under control"
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#217
Doing an extra set of jumprope cuz I ate extra food. I do not like high-restriction. Why am I doing it lately then? I don't know. I wish I knew exact calories of all my bites, here & there. I don't like eating a "meal". A large plate of food. No. Low calorie is easier. I still hate food
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__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. --Robert Frost |
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Having trouble eating today, not sure why. Yesterday was the anniversary of a painful event, maybe stress, anxiety? I ran so much today. OMG, I'm exhausted. Then, I had to run a lot of errands - drugstore (daughter's OTC allergy medication), bank, animal clinic (cats needed more flea medication, that stuff is over $100 a box, and you only get 6 doses, but we have 3 cats, ugh!), grocery shopping, gas, pharmacy to pick up medication for H & me as they do not take our insurance at the drugstore with the only generic allergy medication my daughter will take.
Unloaded groceries, cats all wanted fed, ate half a fancy chocolate bar with nuts putting away groceries, a handful of grapes as I washed them, then chores, finally a shower. I felt gross. It got in the mid-60s here today, and I'd been going, going, going. Struggled eating soup at lunch, couldn't finish it. Guess on the positive side, I was able to skip my prn anxiety meds today - 2 mg clonazepam, 1 tablet of propranolol, low dose Seroquel, just take the gabapentin (that one is prescribed by the rheumatologist). Worried I'm a bit manicky. Well, I've been mixed for ages (since late March at least), could finally be coming out of that. Hypomania I like, but the full-blown stuff, I hate. IDK, some days I think I have a normal appetite (though normal, what is that exactly?), others I'm starving, and other days are like today. Try to eat, just not hungry. I'm exhausted too, but I have to pick up my daughter in an hour. She has practice for a math competition until 5:30 today. Then, it's homework & dinner & bath, all delayed because of her practice. I already feel ready for bed. Am drinking some coffee to perk up. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. --Robert Frost |
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