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#422
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bordom certainly takes over sometimes strangely enough though (or maybe it's not so strange), chilling and doing nothing doesn't really make me bored. it takes a hell of a lot of sitting around to make me bored (or having no computer), that makes me angry and agitated |
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#423
very anxious this afternoon.
this pizza place I'm ordering from only do chicken wings in 7, and when it comes to food, I need to have 8- no more and no less so I am a bit anxious and shaking. ordering 14 is just as bad- then I have too much, I only need 8 |
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#424
Today begins my first day of the required food journaling in preparation for bariatric surgery.
An hour and a half after breakfast, which was duly logged, I find myself not hungry at all, but with an overwhelming urge to munch mindlessly. I am so far resisting that urge. In another hour and a half, or if I actually do get hungry, I'll snack, and I'll log the snack. But I'm training myself not to eat unless I do feel physically hungry. Currently sipping water. |
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#425
I've been eating healthy today. The past couple weeks were not good in terms of food, I binged on all kinds of junk food......at least I didn't
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I've gained weight and am very frustrated with it. It makes me want to go in the opposite direction and restrict again but I know that will just result in a massive binge eventually and back into the stupid cycle. Started doing yoga and drinking more water __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#426
yesterday I ordered takeout from the newly opened pizza place. it was nice, I had meat feast with chicken wings
after dinner I watched WWE main event (most of it was good, though I wasn't too kean on the last part) discovered a new group yesterday called bts (and a new type of music, K-POP) which I think is awesome. sleep didn't happen for me yesterday and nor did rest chronic pain not letting up at all and back's really stiff not much to do today... watch a bit of tv I missed last week (if I can be bothered), and cook something for dinner. ffeel okay, just the pain sucks. it really, really sucks |
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#427
yesterday I was listening to someone on blah therapy who had bipolar and she was telling me that no one understands her and she's sick of people judging her.
I told her I don't do that kind of thing and we got to talking about celebrities with bipolar and what an inspiration they were she then asked me what my coping methods were and I told her I like to journal, to listen to music, and to watch cartoons. she goes... you're 25 and you like cartoons? and diss connected so the fact I'm too old for cartoons is more important than being understood.... okay. personally I will always watch cartoons, no matter what anyone says. I am feeling depressed today because.... well... it is a regular, boring day and when I say regular and boring, it doesn't even cut it their is nothing happening today. it's almost like this day wasn't meant to be in the calendar or something |
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^^Interesting. She's sick of being judged, and then turns right around and judges you.
I'm over twice your age and I like cartoons. Continuing to food journal. It helps that my husband is also doing it, and we can remind each other. We're trying to be thorough. Yesterday was communion service at our church, so we even logged that. Anything at all that goes into our mouths. |
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#429
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#430
I didn't get enough sleep last night and I always end up overeating and feeling moody when I'm sleep deprived... (which often leads to more overeating because I struggle to cope with my emotions)
I ate my dinner too fast and now my stomach hurts. I hope tomorrow will be better __________________ |
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#431
This is a crap day for me and I feel like crap. "Nuff said.
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#433
It is a better day for me today. Not as much pain as I had yesterday. Arthritis stinks..Getting the ice pack out soon. It helps some but pain keeps coming back. Took some diclofenic which I shouldn't take for health reasons. It helps though so I'm taking a few today.
I hope your day is a good one or was a good one. __________________ One way to get the best out of life is to think of it as an adventure. William Feather Medications: Risperidone-1 mg.daily, Propranolol-20 mg. daily, Gabapentin-600 mg daily, Melatonin-3 mg. at bedtime, Nicotine Lozenges-2 mg., Vape Liquid-3 mg., One A Day Vitamins,
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#434
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Today was better for me too. I'm still struggling with anxiety and overeating, but at least I'm not as tired as yesterday. |
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__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, omeperazole I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. --Robert Frost |
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#436
As the scale climbs lower, the stupid ED rejoices. OMG. I have the one side of me knowing I need to exercise less, eat more and gain weight (opposite what all the ads on TV and any women's magazine tells you), and the ED saying, "What?! That's nothing. You got so much thinner than that before." What the F* is wrong with me?!
Not that I miss my low weight. I'd never, ever go back there. It's not a life at all. Stupid purging type (through exercise) anorexia has to be one of the easiest EDs to hide in plain sight. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, omeperazole I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. --Robert Frost |
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#437
Sorry I haven't posted back to anyone. I hope everyone has a good evening or night or whatever it is where you are.
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#438
I hope you're all doing ok. You can do this! You're strong, I know. I believe in you. Sending many hugs to everyone
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#439
Running too much, weight stable though. H can now work from home Tuesday/Thursday which has been nice for me and good for my marriage. 11 year olds get way too curious in that department. Enough said.
__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, omeperazole I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. --Robert Frost |
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#440
Just living life. Dealing with various issues and ailments. I hope everyone has a good night and good sleep.
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