[MuddyBoots]

omg do not mix spicy chili, booze, purge it, and then eat sour patch kids 0/10 seriously do not recommend owww

[unaluna]

Originally Posted by MuddyBoots

omg do not mix spicy chili, booze, purge it, and then eat sour patch kids 0/10 seriously do not recommend owww

So... your back! i was starting to worry!

[Mountaindewed]

I keep having explosive diarrhea so the scale is low tonight. I'm sure I'm pretty dehyrdrated. Ice chips are passing through as well. I threw up a bit because of my intense pain. Theres not much I can do at the moment besides get it out of my stmystem and sleep it off.

[MuddyBoots]

This is fking hilarious: The intake person for my inpatient's name is Anna

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by MuddyBoots

This is fking hilarious: The intake person for my inpatient's name is Anna

I knew a girl faking an eating disorder and her facebok name was Ana

[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I knew a girl faking an eating disorder and her facebok name was Ana

I wonder if I weighed more if Mia would do my intake

[unaluna]

We really need a laugh button! Or at least a smile.

[Mountaindewed]

I ate maple syrup flavored Goldfish for dinner even though I was hungry. I was just too lazy to eat.

[MuddyBoots]

binged&purged before 6:30am. Might be a record for myself other than sleepless 2am binges.

[Mountaindewed]

My mom just chewed me out because I'm mostly eating just chips and drinking soda and coffee these days. Shes at Einsteins getting me some stuff.

I think the last time I ate properly was New Years Day.

[Buffy01]

: I’m wondering if missing a few meals will help me lose weight

[Mountaindewed]

I'm getting off 2 of my meds. So my appetite is pretty low. I just had half a pint of strawberry chocolate Halo Top for dinner. My mom was trying to get me to eat more stuff but I wasn't hungry.

[emily1890]

really regretting eating three big bits of chocolate at the moment

feel quite full and I've not even had dinner yet

[emily1890]

didn't enjoy dinner so ate quite badly afterwards

barely eaten anything today so far. just some grapes for breakfast

[MuddyBoots]

I pretty much got pissed off and used the anger to motivate myself to recover. Am I still binging? For sure. But I’ve stopped purging and restricting so hopefully I can get the binging under control as I feel more in control by applying to all these apartments and programs. Or maybe this is just my “recovery part” being in charge right now.

[Buffy01]

I’ve been working with my therapist who said I need to let go my past trauma which I don’t know how to do

[LornaKay]

Struggling to maintain diet. Im trying to work more on it, but I can go 4-7 days without eating but I am trying very hard to set reminders and make mental notes.

[emily1890]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

I’ve been working with my therapist who said I need to let go my past trauma which I don’t know how to do

same

sometimes I even wonder if it's possible

[emily1890]

I feel really upset that I didn't eat any pancakes today for pancake day

I know... I know. it's only a day and I suppose I can eat them any time. not sure why it upsets me so much

I was going to eat some pancakes, but then I just had meatballs instead..

and I didn't like the meatballs at all. yuck

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by emily1890

same

sometimes I even wonder if it's possible

me too

[MuddyBoots]

I heard this analogy about trauma by this peer support I talked to on the phone.

So, you have a duffel bag and a really nice suitcase with wheels. Your good memories are in the suitcase, easy to move around with lots of useful stuff in there. The bad memories/traumatic experiences are in the duffel bag, zipped up tight, really weighing you down because it's awkward to carry and heavy.

So you have to unzip the duffel bag, take out ONE THING, examine it and change the narrative and how you think about it therefore changing your emotions and behaviors in response to it (very CBT). Then SLOWLY do this with as much as you can in your duffel bag, and eventually it won't weigh you down as much.

For example: I did this recently with the memory of my gf overdosing after I broke up with her. I feel a lot less guilty about that specific event now.

[emily1890]

Originally Posted by MuddyBoots

I heard this analogy about trauma by this peer support I talked to on the phone.

So, you have a duffel bag and a really nice suitcase with wheels. Your good memories are in the suitcase, easy to move around with lots of useful stuff in there. The bad memories/traumatic experiences are in the duffel bag, zipped up tight, really weighing you down because it's awkward to carry and heavy.

So you have to unzip the duffel bag, take out ONE THING, examine it and change the narrative and how you think about it therefore changing your emotions and behaviors in response to it (very CBT). Then SLOWLY do this with as much as you can in your duffel bag, and eventually it won't weigh you down as much.

For example: I did this recently with the memory of my gf overdosing after I broke up with her. I feel a lot less guilty about that specific event now.

I have never heard that before, and I guess it could work providing you don't have anymore traumas to fill said bag back up again

[emily1890]

barely ate much yesterday

need too because I'm starving

[MuddyBoots]

I don't really get disgusted, but if you do, I suggest flushing the toilet after you pee and before you purge. Especially if you're menstruating with a heavy flow.

"That was NOT the most thoroughly thought out vomit sesh."

[emily1890]

I have honestly eaten more junk food than proper meals this week

yesterday when I wrote my shopping list, at least 16 of the items listed were chips or candy

and I just don't care. I just don't. it's so difficult