[Bjork]

Ahhh!

I just saw my therapist this morning and she and my psychiatrist are worried about me. I've been doing some... "eating disorder behaviors" (not sure if I am allowed to mention them here) along with other things that have been going on and so my therapist went ahead and scheduled an appointment for me to see my psychiatrist again tomorrow ! I just went a little while ago and told him about "something" (the behavior), but he wasn't really paying attention. My therapist called him up and spoke to him at length about it and now he seems concerned. I'll bet he thinks I'm psycho! I'm afraid to go tomorrow because I'm not quite sure what he is going to do. Yell at me? Kick my butt? I really don't know what he *can* do at this point. My parents don't even know the full reason why I am going to see my psychiatrist tomorrow. Only my therapist knows. I'd really like to keep it that way, and hopefully it will just go away. GRRRRR! Let me know if I'm allowed to post about negative eating disordered behaviors please. I didn't post them on here because I have gotten bashed in the past for doing so on other boards. Thank you for listening to my rant!

Bjork

not sure if your allowed. but it doesnt bother me. Good luck with your appointment tomorrow. Realize understanding and talking about behaviors sometimes helps uncover things about ourselves. Maybe this is an opportunity to discuss whats going on inside.

[eskielover]

Your psych is probably being called in to possibly prescribe a med that will help correct the ED. Not sure what type of ED you are dealing with, but psychs have many med tricks up their sleeves. He probably won't yell or even kick butt because they know that isn't what helps (at least initially, lol).

Last time, my psych, just put me into a treatment hospital. Not given much choice due to the condition I was in. No one noticed anything until I was way into it. That psych didn't try meds because he had me on meds for other problems. My therapist was the one who talked about what was going on & about the situation. I would like to say that something in the treatment worked, but don't really know how I got through it.

This time I have different Dr's than last time. My GP caught on regarding the weight loss. He wasn't exactly sure about it & didn't realize he "caught a tiger by the tail". With some discussion about it with me, it became clear to him what was going on. He decided to take the roll of concern with my health, & wanted me to talk about it with my psych & psychologist in order to get some help so I won't end up like last time. My psych came up with a med he wanted me to go onto, but my GP didn't agree with using an anti-psychotic & wanted something less agressive. He then came up with another med that was agreeable to my GP, but I still haven't started taking it due to the fact I can't afford to have any side effects from a med at this time when I need to be completely functional. My psychologist is the one that actually lectured me, pointing out my responsibilities & the fact that I can't afford to be dealing with this when I have so many demanding lived that I am responsible for in my life. (my new filly ...9 weeks old, my 11 dogs, my Mom who is terribly ill after cancer surgery this summer, & trying to straighten out my own life...think that is enough to get through my head???)

The logic has hit me & was something that I was telling myself anyway, but realizing & doing are not always the same. The meds are the easy way to reslove it because in my case they usually cause an increase in appetite, but meds are not an option at this time.

In your case, I would follow the suggestion of your psych because he will know the best way to approach your situation. It is also good, even though it is the last thing you would want, to have your parents know what is going on...I found that the more people trying to keep me honest, the less I can get away with.

As far as posting negative eating behaviors, it is possible to talk about them without going into the specifics. Things like not eating, or binge eating, or use of laxitives, etc., are negative behaviors without going into the specific details.

Keep us up to date on how you are doing & how your appointment with your psych goes. You don't want to let it get out of control because your health can be destroyed by it. I had over a year of hospitalizations due to this & each time there was something awful that would happen as a result of my condition.

The past is in the back of my mind this time, not wanting to go there again, but the desire to loose weight is also there. Pushing it as far as I can go seems to be what is happening since my Dr's are monitoring me constantly.

Keep us updated,
Debbie

[Bjork]

Well, I just got back from my visit with my psychiatrist and it went okay I guess. He and my therapist are concerned about my continued Anorexic thinking and some weird paranoid thoughts that I have. He actually looked at me like I was nuts!!! Maybe I am a nut. who knows... Anyway, he then went on to ask me about my family life, which has been problematic lately as well, so I told him about that. So, the end result was that he put me on yet another med (I'm up to 9 prescriptions now ) and upped another one that I am currently taking because of sleep problems. Geez, I would love to just *sleep* for once. So anyway, that's what happened!

Bjork