[iamtwilight]

My size 4 jeans fit me again (they did not fit two weeks ago) and I've been eating normally!

No restricting, no binging.

I hope I can keep it that way. :-)

[iamtwilight]

Ok I admit they are quite tight on the waist but they fit nevertheless :P

[wishfulmuscle]

congrats, thats so good to hear. that is what im trying to do right now, fit into my 4's. Kudos to you!

[Kiya]

=) ((((((((((((katie))))))))))))))
yay for the eating "normally".

kiya

wow... eating normally.... just WOW...

[piscesmom]

eating normally.....I don't even know what that means anymore. I
I don't know if I should congratulate you on being a size 4 - it depends on how tall you are. I mean, I am 5'8'" tall so if I fit into a size 4 I would be really skinny. But right now my size 6 es are getting loose and I still feel fat. So I am confused as hell. I am anorexic and just have no clue how I look or what weight is right or even what size is right. But if a size 4 is a healthy place for you to be then I congratulate you.

Congratulations on eating normally! What an awesome achievement

[Christina86]

((((((((Katie_Kaboom)))))))))))

Good achievement. I hope you manage to continue the healthy way you're eating now.

[iamtwilight]

Piscesmom:
I have the same problem. No matter how skinny I get, I always see myself as fat. Now at size 4, it is a perfectly healthy way to be - I'm rather short.

Thanks for all the replies everyone - Trigger Trigger Trigger -





it just didn't last long. I'm restricting again :-(
in a way I feel it's good but on the other hand I can't really tell anyone about it because they'd say it's bad. I know it is, too - there's just the other side of me that wants to keep going and going and going until there is nothing left to lose.

I don't want to go that far. I don't want to die.

If I ever die, it's an accident I swear. I don't want to die.

[piscesmom]

I am struggling as you are. I have maintained my weight for a month now but my head is telling me "just 5 more pounds".
It is not a good place to be, but I am fighting like hell to maintain this weight and not go any lower. I feel like you do, if I die it is an accident but I have 2 kids who need me, so I can't afford to put myself at such a risk but my thinking is so eating disordered and I am totally restricting and exercising. But eating just enough to maintain.
I have doctor's appointment today for a physical. I haven't eaten because I know I am getting weighed and I want my stomache empty for that. Sick. My appointment is at 4:30, earliest I could get.
I just want the doctor to tell me my weight is oK, just don't lose anymore. Even if I can't see how skinny I am and feel fat, I know that that is just in my head and I could live with that. If he tells me to gain, I will have a big problem.