[bailey193]

I am coming to the conclusion that I am a binge eater. I will eat and eat and eat. I am also a huge snacker. When I was younger and all through high school I was a dancer and I had class about 6 days a week. At that time I could eat junkie foods and everything bad for you, because I would work it all out and maintain a "good" weight. I was very happy with my body and how I looked. I am also THEE PICKIEST EATER. I weighed 120 back then. I then of course went to college and gained the freshman weight. My first semester of college was aweful. I hated the school, hated my classes, and professors and got into this massive fight with all the friends I had made. I sat in my room constantly and just ate. I was so unhappy. I got out of the school and started to get active again but I can't get back to a happy weight. I am 5 feet and I weigh 140. According to all the BMI calculations, I am overweight. I hate the way I look and take a LONG time getting ready everyday cause everything I put on I hate.

I feel like I can't stop eating. I got a gym membership and I go for like 3 days, then stop going. I have started, two days ago, to try to eat only 3 meals a day, with no snacks, and if i NEED a snack I can only have one a day. So far so good, but I'm afraid to weigh myself. I used to go to Mcdonalds at least 3 times a week, but I have cut that down drastically to maybe twice a month. I just feel like eating gets the best of me and when I try to get to a good weight I do good for a week or so, then downfall back into my terrible eating habbits. I feel like I have to eat even when Im not hungry. I eat when I'm bored, I eat if I see other people eating, I also hide eating from people if I know they will say something to me about what I am eating.

I hate trying new foods when they are pushed on me. I don't mind trying things I just want to try them when I WANT TO, not when someone else is pushing me.

sorry this is so long.. this whole thing is starting to take over my whole life and I can't take it anymore! it makes me depressed when ever i think about it and i get really down on myself when i eat now.

[*freak*]

Hi
I'm a binge eater too and I can definitely relate to almost everything you say, except that I've never been thin or happy with the way I look...
Have you considered going to see a nutritionist? It helps if you know exactly what and how much you're supposed to eat (just don't expect from yourself to follow the plan perfectly from day one, from my experience it takes a while to get used to it.. and remember that it's okay to indulge in an extra treat every once in a while ). Bad eating habits are often responsible for this kind of problems, and from what you wrote this seems the case here. Until a few years ago I had no idea how to eat properly and learning to eat in a healthy way was really helpful. Not to mention that with a balanced diet you're less likely to gain weight even if you still binge from time to time.
You can also try to replace the junk snacks with something more healthy, like a fruit. Or if you have some time on your hands, prepare your own sweets instead of buying them... they'll be way better than the full-of-sugar&fats ones that have been sitting on a store shelf for months.
And when you get bored instead of eating you could try to do something you enjoy. Do you have a hobby or a particular interest that you can occupy yourself with when you feel like you have nothing to do? Staying active is the best way to forget about food.
These are the things that I try to apply to my everyday life and that I find helpful... Hope they'll work for you too

[bailey193]

Things are going okay.. I have been sticking to my little plan of only 1 snack a day if any, But I feel like I'm going nowhere. I HATE how I look and get upset, and eat more. Its a crazy cycle that I can't stop!