this almost makes me hungry (food struggles)

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watching an autopsy.


we have no food in the house.. nothing i would eat, anyway. and i'm kinda "back in the game"... it sucks... so much... but there is so much external stress right now. moving out & dad being mean and drunk all the time. i bet that's what has triggered the ED again.

i'm almost hungry... asked mom to bring me my favourite chocolate. a 100 gram bar of about 500 calories. all in a day's work? not always. just now. i'm not even entirely sure i will want to eat it.. the sickness... ugh.

i did try to cook dinner.. curry sauce with green peppers in it and pieces of beef jerky... it ended up smelling disgusting. i tasted a bit, it wasn't so bad, but the smell was so awful that i couldn't eat the rest. and it wasn't the slightest bit spicy..

aaaarrggh. have gotten through the day with coffee.. but now we're out of milk and i won't have it black.. i did put sugar in it.. i thought it was ok because i haven't been eating the past couple days. had a glass of grape soda too... mom will be so angry because all i do is drink all the soda ;D

ok. maybe watching the rest of the movie will work me up in the mood for eating a bit.


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