[leannrk21]

I'm new to PC, so please bear with me as I try to get used to the site. I'm wondering if there are others in this forum like me who are older and still dealing with an eating disorder? I'm am 39 and maybe unlike some developed my eating disorder (anorexia) about 8 years ago or so.
I was hospitalized twice about 6 years ago or so and now find myself slipping into many of my old habits. I have not been in any kind of therapy for a couple of years as things "seemed" to be better, but for some reason now I'm starting to slip again.
I truly don't really know why. I just recently got remarried and should be the happiest I've ever been, but I'm not. Don't get me wrong, my husband is wonderful and has always been supportive of me, but he doesn't understand this part of me. He is constantly on me to "just eat", but doesn't get that it isn't about the eating for me, it's the fact of me being in control of one thing in my life. I know he means well and is just concerned about me, but some days, it just gets to be too much.
I know that all I'm doing is hurting my body and putting myself in a life threatening situation, but I don't know how to get this "out" of me for good. I've been thinking of going to therapy again but to be honest I am afraid. I don't want to be put on a ton of meds and don't want to be thrown back into the hospital. So I don't know what other options there really are.
I'm sorry I know I'm kind of rambling on but I honestly don't know who else to talk to. No one in my family understands this disorder and only tend to get angry with me so I can't talk to them. I know it isn't fair to do this to my husband and my son. I just don't know what to do, I'm really lost and afraid right now.
Well, thanks at least for listening.

[darkrunner]

Dear Leannrk,
I'm 35 and was just diagnosed with anorexia. I know that is unusual....and most people our age have been dealing with an eating disorder for a long time, like you have.
I don't have any great advice for you.... I am still really struggling myself......but I wanted you to know you are not alone.
Please try to go back into therapy.
Getting married.....even though a happy event....can cause stress because it is a major life change.
Maybe you just need some extra support right now, and a reminder to use healther coping skills than your ED.

Welcome to PC. Feel free to PM me anytime if you want to talk.
Best wishes,
ktgirl

[leannrk21]

Hi Ktgirl,

Thank you so much for answering me back. It is really good to know there is someone else out here close to my age and working through the same situation. I sometimes feel alone in this battle. I did reluctantly make an appointment to start therapy again, we'll see how that goes.
Thanks for your offer to PM you...I will for sure do that. Feel free to do the same anytime. Hopefully we can be a good support for each other and anyone else out there.
Leann

[darkrunner]

That's great Leann - I'm glad you are going to see a T!!
Let me know how that goes.

I know what you mean about feeling "alone in this battle".......
I often think about how, no matter how much help we get from others, it is ultimately up to us as to whether or not we recover.
It is a scary thought..and can seem hopeless!!!
But I hope your T gets you on the right path.


ktgirl

[bchlyn]

i am 51 and was given a dx of anorexia last week... my weight has always been an issue, but i go back and fourth... i am not sure i believe my dx