[mary39]

A horrible horrible person, and a horrible selfish daugher.
I don't care about anyone else's feelings, and how what i'm doing is affecting them.
My mum cried today when she found out i'd eaten nothing for 24 hours and now she's making me dinner.
+ i'm grounded.
But i can't just change, its not like it has an on/off button.
I feel so horrible.
Maybe i'll just crawl into a hole...

[Swanno]

Do you get hungry when you don't eat? Or are you used to it? Does it feel good to feel hungry? I am only asking because I am interested in how you feel.

I don't have the same feeling that I stop eating. I binge and purge, but its out of guilt.. its like I am another person... I can see what I am doing but I am in no control - like auto pilot... It's funny what our minds do isn't it?

[MINIME]

You are not horriable. It will be ok.

[darkrunner]

(((((((((((((((Mary))))))))))))))))))))
You are not horrible, my dear. You have a sickness.
Are you seeing a counselor for this?
It would probably help you to talk to someone.

Don't be so hard on yourself....
you're not the only one, and it is not hopeless.
Just don't give up.

ktgirl

[mlpHolmes]

You are a Precious, Very Special person, not horrible at all. No one else has your ideas, your talents, your abilities, your creativeness or you unique point of view. no, there is no like you, and there never will be.

You may have eating issues, problems. That will be helpful to work on. But the two are completely separate issues.

Much Love
Holmes

[mary39]

Originally Posted by Swanno

Do you get hungry when you don't eat? Or are you used to it? Does it feel good to feel hungry? I am only asking because I am interested in how you feel.

I don't have the same feeling that I stop eating. I binge and purge, but its out of guilt.. its like I am another person... I can see what I am doing but I am in no control - like auto pilot... It's funny what our minds do isn't it?

Sometimes i get hungry, and my stomach hurts, but most of the time i just don't want to eat so much that i don't feel hungry.

[mary39]

Originally Posted by ktgirl

(((((((((((((((Mary))))))))))))))))))))
You are not horrible, my dear. You have a sickness.
Are you seeing a counselor for this?
It would probably help you to talk to someone.

Don't be so hard on yourself....
you're not the only one, and it is not hopeless.
Just don't give up.

ktgirl

I'm seeing the counsellor at school but after i saw her yesterday she said i didn't need to see her again for two weeks... two whole weeks.

and thanks for the replies everyone, it helps to know that people care.

[Swanno]

Originally Posted by mary39

I'm seeing the counsellor at school but after i saw her yesterday she said i didn't need to see her again for two weeks... two whole weeks.

and thanks for the replies everyone, it helps to know that people care.

Yeah its funny hey? My pyschologist made an appointment for a month away... My dietitian questioned this...

I had a bad day today.. i can't believe how much i can eat