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Feb 22, 2005 at 01:27 AM
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things in my mind have improved slightly ... just enough to get me to go out and meet a guy...
and he wants me, and i want him, badly. he's a minor,and im so conflicted cuz i want him..... so i threw up all my food tonight. i just hate my body, im fat, im ugly, i am lonely, im useless... these meds need to work. they need to , cuz i just hate being me. |
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Feb 22, 2005 at 01:40 AM
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Ahem.
A) if you throw up your food, then you're throwing up the meds. No point to giving up good drugs. B) you're not fat. C) you're not ugly. D) you might be lonely, that's true. E) you're not useless. F) you are, however, a little bit of a dork. Forget the minor and buy yourself a piece of chocolate cake. You need to treat yourself better. Kindly, LMo __________________ thatsallicantypewithonehand |
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Feb 22, 2005 at 01:52 AM
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i took extra meds to compensate...
and im a dork who really needs sex. |
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Feb 22, 2005 at 01:56 AM
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G) can't help ya there.
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Feb 22, 2005 at 02:07 PM
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As we pass thru the series of portals that define our path to the truth of our selves, we encounter the lions guarding the gate. Each portal passed through presents us with a fiercer pair of lions to face. The depakote isn't making you throw up, the depakote is more like the portal of finally helping yourself, and the throwing up is the revival of an old ghost, a fear response to the lions. The lions are as though paper. Once faced, they fall.
You are no kind of dork. You take the meds for your kids. You avoid rolling minors for sex for your kids. (btw, 16? he won't likely satisfy you. When I was 16, it was all over before it even got started. lol) It's all about your kids. You can do this. __________________ Only the truth IS; untruth can not BE. |
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Feb 26, 2005 at 03:47 AM
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laxatives....
excessive abuse of them. maybe they will allow me to eat a normal amount of food and lose my blubber on my belly. |
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Feb 26, 2005 at 04:02 AM
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I abused laxatives for 15 years before I stopped. I became extremely allergic to them. I was a low weight bulimic at the time. I found when I stopped abusing laxatives the weight piled on. After all the weight lost is just water weight. I suggest you use diet and exercise as a way to loose unwanted weight. It sure is healthier for your body and you won't have the unwanted weight gain when you stop.
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Feb 26, 2005 at 06:51 PM
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actually i lost about 10 pounds last time i did this....
my plan is to lose them again, cuz they did come back its so hard to resist the craving for chocolate cake though when i get this way..... and all the purging makes me too weak for exercise. |
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Feb 27, 2005 at 04:07 AM
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That's the point CCL, ED are cyclical. You loose weight and the gain it back again and the cycle repeats itself. Stopping the purging will allow you to be able to exercise to counteract eating the chocolate cake. Besides the more you purge the more you crave sweets so stopping the purging may take care of cravings that cause the weight gain. You concern me. Take care and keep posting.
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Feb 27, 2005 at 09:39 AM
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CCL I want to apologize for my last post. I in no way mean to come accross as "preachy". I have struggled with bulimia for 15 years and I stopped only to recently pick it up again. It is irresponsible of me to ask you to stop the binge-purge cycle. I am concerned about your health and the risk the binge-purge cycle poses on your life. Please forgive me for my prior post. I should really take my own advice and not presume to offer advice to anyone else.
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Feb 27, 2005 at 04:29 PM
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dont have to apologize....
i usually take things with a few grains of salt anyway. it didnt seem too preechy but thank you for clarifying 
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Feb 28, 2005 at 01:29 AM
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i know this is NOT a pro-ANA site, but im trying to lose fat in my abdomen desperately so i can get a date....
im using tons of laxatives, and enemas, and i throw up and im not eating a lot... im freakin starving! if anyone knows of a better way to lose this fast like in 2 weeks tell me, cuz i will not stop this, and i refuse to let myself be this fat! |
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Feb 28, 2005 at 06:33 AM
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I think my mother has an extreme case of anorexia, and I was if you new an informative website. I'm extremely afraid. please help
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Feb 28, 2005 at 06:35 AM
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oh yeah, your not going to get him if your dead
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Feb 28, 2005 at 01:28 PM
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CCL, there is NO WAY to spot reduce, and a bloated abdomen is much more likely to be CAUSED by enemas and laxatives and vomiting than to be cured by it.
Now, please take this in the spirit in which it is offered: don't be stupid. You already know that what you're doing isn't good for you, and that it's dangerous to your health. Why keep doing it? It isn't working, is it? If it's not working, and it's dangerous to your health, why keep doing it? By the way, from my experience -- which is rather more extensive than maybe I'm happy about -- men do not care nearly as much about abdominal fat as they do about things like personality, and interests. How attractive do you think a man is who can think and talk about nothing more than what he's doing at the gym and how concerned he is about [choose a body part]? How attractive do you think you are to someone if all you can think about as a sign of your self worth is your body? Have you discussed this with your doctor? __________________ There is no heroic poem in the world but is at bottom a biography, the life of a man; also, it may be said there is no life of a man, faithfully recorded, but is a heroic poem of its sort, rhymed or unrhymed. Thomas Carlyle in essay on Sir Walter Scott |
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Feb 28, 2005 at 01:41 PM
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yep... asked him for diet pills.... he laughed.....
see the problem is, i dont want to stop doing it... i just want to be skinnier..... and if the dr gives me a damn diet pill the purging nonsense can stop. and i do agree, that guys want a girl with a good personality, and they tell me all the time that im fun, im cool, im easy to talk to etc... but then when i hate my body so badly, the relationship gets ruined cuz they think i look good and i think i look awful.  liposuction costs too much for me right now, or i would just do that. remember too, im in cali... and its a beach lifestyle... i have so many flaws i cant even wear a bikini... well i can but oh my god how embarrassing! stretchmarks (ive had since i was like 12), puff belly, yuk... what guy wants to see THAT??? |
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