[gemini_girl04]

I have been diagnosed with Anorexia in dec 08 but i always had eating iusses. the reasons why are cuz of my mom and her ways. This year is my frist time ever reaching out for help im not doing so well in it yet.

Originally Posted by gemini_girl04

I have been diagnosed with Anorexia in dec 08 but i always had eating iusses. the reasons why are cuz of my mom and her ways. This year is my frist time ever reaching out for help im not doing so well in it yet.

I think your on the right track gemini . Thats the twin right ? separation from Mom and the internal negative or mixed messages she may have or be giving you or maybe even smoothering not letting you be you .

Thats what my mom did and her treatment of me internalized messing me up pretty bad,
she had an ed also but it was hidden . She did it all .restricitng, laxatives, vomiting at various times in her life. She dropped hints allong the way

I was so foused on me and I was always the problem she went undetected.

I hope your mother is still available and is willing to get help along with you. If not , you can get out from under all of this.

I still hurt and it will always be a loss of not having a truly loving nurtuing mother.

Its real crazey to have to reparent yourself yet get smashed because you seek love in others maybe seen as too needy.

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Heres a couple of photo's I took On tuesday.

The male would leave the branch. The female would come after him. He would just sit there. She would fly away. He would follow.

BUT he never sat on the branch beside her . He always sat on one in front of her a distance away so she could see him . Then she would hop up on the branch beside him again . and repeate .

They did this exact same flight dance over and over . At no time did the male come up to her on the brach like she did him.

thats as far As they got..

They are not like us humans .