Iam scared to death that i will develope a eating disorder because three days ago i ate 2 meals threw up one right after i ate it but not the other in three days i eaten 3or4 meals yesterday i did not throw up because i was not home alone but today i threw up after i ate lunch iam trying to eat one meal a day i hate the way that i look iam overweight when i throw up i feel happier i have thrown up in the past about 3 years ago but only a few times then stopped but now iam afraid that iwill not be able to stop because it makes me feel so good to think that doing this will make me thin

[noella123]

i have the same exact problem. I am trying to be thin by binging and purging.. and i deny that i have a problem but I know I am eating because i think i am depressed. lately i have just wanted to stay in bed and i avoid going out. I am extremely unhappy with myself and I just want to be thin. I don't know what to do either. its a vicious cycle.. i need help too : (

[Christina86]

First, I think you might want to reconsider your username. You are NOT a loser, in any way. But that is neither here nor there...

Do you have a therapist, or someone you can talk to who is a health professional, about all of this? It's not easy to go the route alone to prevent further development of an eating disorder.

Do try for at least ONE square (ie. healthy, well-rounded) meal a day without purging. If you continue a pattern of throwing up after meals, your body can begin to do it without your conscious decision to do so. Then it's really hard to stop.

Thank you for your advise iam eating the one square meal a day I have a therapist that i just started seeing we have had 4 sessions so far today i threw up my lunch and about an hour later i threw it up but with not eating iam not hungary i just drink coffee, tea and hot chocalate to fill me up

Originally Posted by loser37

Thank you for your advise iam eating the one square meal a day I have a therapist that i just started seeing we have had 4 sessions so far today i threw up my lunch and about an hour later i threw it up but with not eating iam not hungary i just drink coffee, tea and hot chocalate to fill me up

awwwe Shucks ,

I just lost my reply Looser. You know Looser 37 would be a great name if it represented you just lost 37 lbs and you hit goal weight in weight watchers . I guess.

I'm with Christina on the name consideration, it reinforces the inner critic some of us have.

The purging does a couple of things. its a high , it numbs , and it get rid of Hunger for a long while . i returns though with a vengence.

The drinking of coffee and hot chocolate is for caffine for energy so you can continue on empty.

The great hunger is whats so difficult to harness. I find for me its triggered by good tasting foods. Thats just how my brain is wired.

work on a food plan that eliminates trigger foods, you can reintroduce them at a later date,

how I know I have a foods that do not belong on my food plan is its usually all I want to eat and all the good food like spinich yuk!

rots in the fridge. the good food doesn't call out to me when I open the door . Its pretty uneventful .

Good luck with your T . I hope you feel free to share where you are with the food and feelings . I didn't want to dissapoint people. It was so very hard to stop.

lots of hugs
Patricia