[wildflowerchild25]

I got lectured by my gastroenterologist today for my weight the dr scale said I weighed 220lbs but I know it’s more like 215 bc I was wearing two layers of clothes and heavy boots (it’s freaking cold outside lol). But point is my BMI is apparently 39, which he said was right on the border of “stage three obesity”. It really hurt to hear that. I mean I know I’m overweight but I didn’t know I was that freaking overweight, to be considered almost morbidly obese???

I only made it two days on weight watchers this week and then gave into cravings I wanted a grilled cheese and tomato soup yesterday and couldn’t get it out of my head and so I just said **** it. I always, ALWAYS do.

Sigh. I always think I’ll feel better once I eat my craving and I never do, and then I feel bad about myself, so I eat more, and Feel bad about myself, eat more, etc etc etc.

I need to take the time to figure out how to make lower fat/calorie/sugar versions of my cravings. Like yesterday I blew it all so I could have grilled cheese and tomato soup, but I bought creamy tomato soup at hand so it was worse than if I had just made the regular condensed tomato soup with water. I dunno. I’m so discouraged.

Well I guess I need to just climb back on the horse and try again. Keep trying no matter how many times I fail cause one time it will stick. I’m hoping anyway.

[Tucson]

I weigh 182. I have consumed about 2000 calories. I have no dessert to eat which may be a good thing for right now. I promised my daughter that I will make Mexican flan, but that will have to wait. I think I will start the day tomorrow with oatmeal.

[bizi]

Thank you for the birthday wishes!
yesterday I bought some veggies that were out dated but still fresh looking in individual containers, carrots and dip. grape tomatoes. quacmoli sp?
I bought instant black bean soup. I have small bags of pop corn.
almonds.

Had a banana for breakfast with coffee.
Had a healthy lunch of veggie quiche and cabbage soup.
It was difficult being at the bar tonight for whole foods trivia and not drinking. Our team won first place $20! went toward my hubbies bar bill.
For dinner I ate healthy for the first hour.
chicken salad
brussel sprouts and kale slaw, an apple.
Then hubbies food came deep fried cod fish and french fries. Which I ate some of his left overs. they were so greasy. I knew I should not have eaten them. they were there and I could not stop eating them. finally I went out and got some gum to chew, did not drink alcohol so that was good.

tomorrow I work and we will have a healthy dinner of lemon pepper talapia and lentil tomato soup and tabouli.
I work out of town tomorrow so will have my favorite oatmeal for lunch.
I will eventually lose this weight, day at a time.
bizi

[UpDownAround]

Today. I am still eating a lot of junk but getting in at or slightly under goal. But besides all the treats around from the holidays (that are nearly gone), the other thing I eat a lot of is turkey. No one else at home eats as much of it as I do, so I picked the carcasses clean right after the dinners and divvied it up into small freezer bags, each with about 8 oz of meat, sprinkled some chicken broth on them and put them in the deep freeze. Every 3 days or so I pull out another bag, so I don't have it going bad and I have quick lunches for weeks.

Anyway, turkey on salad is one of my secret weapons. Lunch is often under 200 calories but still packing the protein. I had another secret weapon for a late snack - PB2 on an Xtreme Wellness tortilla. That clocks in at 100 calories. If you like peanut butter and haven't tried PB2, you really should. I didn't expect it to be as good as it is. It's extremely low fat powdered peanut butter. It's great for shakes and in recipes, but you can also just stir it up with a little water and use it like regular peanut butter. Good stuff, especially the chocolate flavored one.

[99fairies]

I keep bouncing between 151 and 155. It's so annoying. I was having one slimfast a day with my geodon at night, but I'm thinking of doing the whole slimfast diet and seeing if it gets me unstuck. So thats 2 shakes a day and a healthy 500 calorie meal. I'll start it today and check back in. Hope everyone is doing well..., keep on truckin folks!

[UpDownAround]

Thinking some more about what is making this time work for me...

I slept in a bit this morning; it was almost lunch time when I got up. I ate my usual breakfast and then came up with something to have to fit in as a lunch shortly after. It occurred to me how different I am thinking of food lately since I have been tracking everything and shooting for a goal. I am looking for things to fill out my required calories instead of trying to figure out how to squeeze things in. I wish I had the magic instructions for how to shift your mindset into thinking that way. I hope it sticks once I get to goal. I think I will always track at least some of my days. Knowing exactly where I stand in terms of what I have eaten and how much I have left makes a huge difference. I prelog some things, like a nice dessert I am planning to have later, so that I then make the day work in what's left. It's okay to borrow between days but I almost never do it.

I have lost weight in the past without tracking, but I was dieting by eating very light and cutting back so severely that when it came time to maintain, I didn't adjust properly. I had no clue what my intake was to lose and what it should be to maintain. I didn't slow my loss toward the end so that only a minor adjustment was needed to go into maintenance. I blindly made major adjustments to how I ate. This time I have the blinders off. I use myfitnesspal.com's web site and phone app. It's pretty good. The point of this is that I strongly encourage others to start tracking everything every day to get a feel for what your intake is to start with and what it is to establish a rate of loss. Even track when it goes off the rails. You don't have to post it for the world to see; you really only need to be accountable to yourself.

[Tucson]

My weight is 182. I have consumed 2000 calories. I snacked on buttered popcorn to boost the calories a bit. I am starting to drink a yogurt smoothie every day. I need to mix this up by making a banana shake, but without icecream. I find that I get a good consistently by first freezing the banana. I then add milk and protien powder. Then I give it a whir in the NutriBullet. I should do this at the start of the day. I have enough pizza to last me at least a couple more days. I purchased the pizza for half off. Nice. My favorite. Papa Johns Pan pizza. Lets see if ny weight wabbles between 178 and 182 like it has been doing.

[99fairies]

Slim fast was great yesterday. It was so easy to stick to. I just drank my 2 shakes and ate a healthy supper. I thought I might get hungry but the shakes are very filling, so all in all it seems to be a great diet so far.

[UpDownAround]

This morning the scale said 179.0, which is 1.6 higher than a couple of days ago. I am not worried about the jitter. I have stayed at goal every day, so it is just the normal bouncing around. If my spikes up are staying in the 170s, that is definitely progress. I tried on some jeans that I haven't worn in 4 years and they fit snugly, but they fit (not over stretched or anything). When I lost this much weight the last time, I had convinced myself that getting jeans that size would motivate me to stay at that weight and I bought 3 pairs. These will fit really well when I lose down to goal. They might even be a little loose, which I prefer.

I am glad I didn't buy any "intermediate" sized pants while I have been losing. I have one pair that are low/mid range sized and some that had become way too big that I belted and wore anyway. So my wardrobe just increased significantly.

I hope the motivation that failed me 4 years ago works this time. This time is different; I have a very different approach to how I eat. Also last time I was running a *lot* to help lose weight and tore my knees up and ended up having surgery. I started gaining weight while recovering from that.

[bizi]

good luck in this journey!
bizi

[bizi]

Ate a lot today.
half an avocado
coffee with half and half.
3 eggs scrambled with spinach and a side of brocolli.
6 oz of talapia fish, 12oz of chunky lentil veggie soup
1/2 cup of tabouli (parsley, quinoa salad)
one hundred calories of chocolate

am full la croix to drink tonight
and then maybe some tea!
bizi

[wildflowerchild25]

Stuck to my points today! Even with PMS and cramps and all I wanted was a huge chocolate bar. I ate one tiny piece and wrapped up the rest of the bar. I had eggs with a bit of cheese, spinach and artichoke chicken, and roast chicken with a little mashed potatoes and lots of green beans.

Tomorrow I am going out with some of the women from my moms church for “ladies night” so I’m going to try to keep my points low during the day to save for dinner. I checked the menu already and I’m probably going to go for a chicken Caesar salad or the seared salmon. Caesar salad is high points bc of the dressing but salmon is expensive so I dunno.

I’m just glad I have at least one day in the books and bonus: I didn’t gain any weight this week. Didn’t lose but didn’t gain.

[UpDownAround]

Near goal maybe; I had one of those inexact entries using a generic entry for chicken spaghetti. Checking the packages for noodles, sauce and ground chicken and thinking about how much I had I think the entry is in the neighborhood.

I have been getting more steps in. Not the 10,000 magic goal but I got 4,000 today according to the fitness watch I got for Christmas. The app estimates that is 165 calories. I don't up what I eat to compensate; I just figure it will help me lose a tiny bit faster. I have averaged 3074 steps a day so far this month. That kind of puts me between sedentary and lightly active on the calorie calculators. I think I am burning around 2,000 a day total, so eating around 1500 should come out to a pound a week. I haven't been tracking the rate exactly; I am trending down and not disappointed with progress.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by UpDownAround

Near goal maybe; I had one of those inexact entries using a generic entry for chicken spaghetti. Checking the packages for noodles, sauce and ground chicken and thinking about how much I had I think the entry is in the neighborhood.

I have been getting more steps in. Not the 10,000 magic goal but I got 4,000 today according to the fitness watch I got for Christmas. The app estimates that is 165 calories. I don't up what I eat to compensate; I just figure it will help me lose a tiny bit faster. I have averaged 3074 steps a day so far this month. That kind of puts me between sedentary and lightly active on the calorie calculators. I think I am burning around 2,000 a day total, so eating around 1500 should come out to a pound a week. I haven't been tracking the rate exactly; I am trending down and not disappointed with progress.

I am so proud of you.
You are doing swimmingly well!
keep up this important job,
It is hard and you are worthy of this effort!
bizi

[Naynay99]

Well I am planning on joining WW tomorrow. And unlike in the past I didn’t binge all week and wait till I actually joined to start eating healthier. So that is a tiny win. I am gonna try to bring lunch almost every day this week.
The only thing that is giving me anxiety is I have a dr appt on Tuesday and I know I gained weight over the holidays and even tho I am trying to do something about itI know my dr is gonna focus on the weight, which is making me dread the appointment. I know he is just looking out for my health but it makes me feel like a total piece of shiit who can’t even manage to control what I put in my mouth... I feel bad enuf on my own I really don’t need more judgement than I already give myself.

Sorry I meant for this to be a hopeful positive post. Ah well. I’m actually feeling good about joining weight watchers bc I am looking it as a way to view food in a more healthy way. Anyway I think it helps that my coworker friends are eating healthier too, should be less tempatation if we r looking out for each other.
Take care all.

[NolaMae]

I do Weight Watchers and last August reached my 75 pound weight loss goal. This was in spite of some of the meds I'm on. I have to admit I gained 6 pounds over the holidays but am back on track now and hoping to get it off soon. Losing all that weight helped more than any antidepressant I've ever been on. Did it make my bipolar and mood swings go away? Of course not. But the fact that I actually started to like myself and the improved self esteem I have did wonders for my mental health.

[Naynay99]

That’s awesome Nolamae!! U inspire me, that is great u have been so successful on WW!

[Tucson]

I have no appetite. I think this will come to pass. Lets see, I ate eggs, and a burger. Oh yes, and drank some soda. That is it. I do not want to loose weight. So I guess I will see what happens tomorrow.

[Tucson]

NolaMae, I am very happy for you. So WW actually works.

[99fairies]

To all you people doing weight watchers... I have a question. Are you attending meetings or joining online?